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So I decided Mondays would be my Official "weigh-in" days.
As of today October 1st (42 days out)I am at 247. Thats  a 47 lb loss since surgery. I am definitely hitting the gym for the rest of the week to make sure I hit 55lbs by next Monday.
I have also given myself a bit of a "reach goal" I want to be at 215 in time for my cruise at the end of October! Its def going to be hard considering I have been losing about a pound a day and there are only 21 days left...but I am going to try as hard as I can to really up the protein and cardio.I was at 215 just a year ago and honestly I look good at that weight...so I know I wont hate my pictures!
As far as my personal life goes...Thats a bit of a mess. I normally wouldnt spill all of my personal news online, but I feel like I am on OH to help others understand what this process is like-both physically and emotionally. 
Without getting too deep or lengthy I guess what I can basically say is this...I am married and have only been so for a year. I lost a lot of weight for my wedding and always said "Even when I get thin, Ill never stray-Im lucky to have someone who loves me big or small"  but as surgery became a reality, and I have started to really imagine what life is going to be like once I reach my goal...it has taken a pretty big toll on the plans I had for my marriage (I mean there are some other issues there-but this much relates to WLS). I can so easily envision now going out with my friends, flirting, dating, wearing whatever I want, feeling free (both both the weight and anything else that ties me down) I feel like this is an opportunity for me to start a WHOLE new life, one that I always wanted but felt left out of because I was the cute, but fat girl of the bunch. Im adventurous (and always have been) but weight obviously kept me back...I just booked a zip-line through the rainforest of St. Lucia -which includes over an hour of hiking and o 10 Aerial drops through the mountains (something I NEVER would have done before because I knew I wouldnt fit in the straps!)-I highly doubt the DH will be able to keep up. I guess the point is just that I am starting to rethink-RE-EVALUATE my entire life and I feel like there has GOT to be so much MORE.  I have read some of your other pages and I know initially the attention is good but then wears off...I am totally expecting that. But Im scared that I am destroying an entire life i just built and then I am going to learn the hard way that the grass is not greener...but still HOW COULD IT NOT BE??

Any input, advice or comments are greatly needed and appreciated!

There are moments in your life that make you

and set the course for who you are going to be.

Sometimes they're little subtle moments.

Sometimes they're big moments you never saw coming.

Noone asks for thier life to change, but it does.

It's what you do afterwards that counts.

That's when you find out who you are.

So I weighed in at the doctor today (drum roll please) and I am officially down 40 lbs! yay!! Its been 5 weeks since surgery but 6 since I started my weight loss journey so I am super thrilled about the reults so far. I have been hitting the gym everyday, although sometimes I slack on the weekends-so that seems to be paying off. 
I have been suffering from a little bit of eating remorse...basically I just feel kinda guilty when i eat. The same way you might feel when youve spent $200 dollars on  a pair of shoes you will never wear enough to have paid so much for. It's like, "is this tuna/juice/yogurt really worth the 11 carbs?" I know, crazy-but im aware and trying to work on it.

OK So I promised myself I would try to chronicle my journey and of the feelings that go along with it so here is my attempt.

I went to the doctor yesterday for my 1 week check-up. I am 11 lbs down from Surgery and 20lbs total from my pre-op diet. So Officially I was 274.  I am not going to lie I was a little disappointed. I don't know why...I guess I just feel like 9 days of NOTHING but water, SF Jello, and Broth would yeild a little more than 11 lbs. I have had ALOT of "head hunger" really craving different foods I was used to having everyday. Really I think its more of having to break my routine that is harder...Mcdonalds on my way to work, A KFC snacker for lunch (or skipping lunch) Taco Bell Salad on my way home...ugh I miss those things, but after feeling pretty sick last night (I think from the little bit of soup I tried) I really don't want food right now. 

I think I personally need to avoid being around social food settings in general. I have this huge Cuban family and I swear all we do is Eat. All get-togethers are surrounded around great cooking or going out to eat. So right now I am a bit of a hermit-trying to avoid sitting at the restaraunt, bread basket tempting me-lol, while everyone else eats. 

Ill def try to keep journaling my progress and feelings...fell free to comment or advise I could use any useful input!
~Mandy

So I came home from the hospital last night. It was very different than I expected (despite all the research I did).  I "fell asleep" right after I was taken into the OR and suddenly woke up after what felt like 5 minutes...but my surgery was all done! Then I was transported to my room after about 30 minutes in the recovery room. Thats when I realized I was in ALOT of pain after surgery...mostly due to the gas they pump into your abdomen in order to do the RNY. I walked almost immediately because I thought  I had to use the bathroom, I was wrong lol. The first night was I was mostly out of it (thanks to the 3 morphine shots).  But I was reallly lucky to have met such a great friend during the pre-op program. Carly and I are about the same age-and really bonded...and even got our surgery scheduled on the same day! So I had someone to walk with throughout our first days. The nurses were WONDERFUL!!! Dawn was our daytime nurse and had her RNY 6 months ago. Mandy our night nurse was great during our negotiations (We agreed to walk all around the top floor again if she promised to give us a morphine shot afterwards lol) The whole floor kept referring to us as "the twins". Needless to say  I didn't really want to leave the Hospital-as I felt I wasnt  ready...But Dr. Fernandez said we were doing great and there was no reason to keep us there. So I am slowly sipping my apple juice and mentally preparing  to start my protein tomorrow!

Oh..I also lost 9 lbs before surgery.
Highest Ever-312
1 Week Before Surgey-294
Day of Surgery-285

So I called Dr. Fernandez office today to check if they got my labs---and they offered me a surgery date of Friday! I was like "are you serious!?" That is only 4 days away---I asked if we could do it after the weekend..So Monday August 21st is my official surgery date. My parents are loaning me the money and I am lucky to have sweet grandparents who are also giving me a large portion of the surgery cost...Im so lucky that my family supports me and cares so much about my health. So...I start my Liver reduction diet tomorrow. So much to do in the next few days--but so worth it.

Well I guess i should give a quick summary of my wls process. 
I decided in July that I would have surgery...In three weeks I attended the seminar,  had my Psyc eval, Nutritional Eval, Dr.'s Assesment and Lab work.  On 8/14 I have to attend one mandatory support group meeting and THEN I can schedule surgery...So I am almost there! 
Aetna-my insurance company will not pay (well they will but my husbands company doesnt offer it as an option in thier package) So I am self paying 22,000 uck---but its going to be woth every penny,