Day 8: Not sure how I feel...

Aug 04, 2011

Today starts the second week of my life with a new stomach and my mind seems to be struggling a little to grasp all the changes.  As those around me snack on chips, chocolate and popcorn I can't help but drool over and crave them.  My mind wants so much to have a nibble or a taste and I suspect that my stomach wouldn't even mind...but I know that all it takes is a nibble or a taste and I am back to where I was only one week ago with uncontrollable urges and a depandence on sugar.  My surgery was only a week ago and I know I need to prove to myself that I can do it before I allow myself indulgences. 

I am thankful that the burning hunger I felt (hindsight tells me it was definitely head hunger) is basically gone.  I'm struggling, however, with determining what portion size I should be having in the absence of real hunger is a struggle.  I'm not supposed to eat much beyond pureed foods so eating any protein of substance is out of questions.  And a girl can only have so many protein shakes in one day.  I guess I need to start bulking up on them, though.  I'm looking forward to the days of a chicken breast or a steak, though.  Mmmm...chicken!  

Today I have also felt a little out of sorts.  My tummy ached a little more than usual today and I've been much more tired than normal.  I'm hoping this is a one day thing and not my new norm.  Going back to work on Monday is going to be rough.  And not because I'm not able to work- because I've sure been enjoyingg this time off!  

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