Day 9...So close to my first goal!

Aug 05, 2011

It's only the 9th day of my new mini stomach and I'm amazed by my progress so far.  My morning weigh in brought forth some amazing news...I am less than a pound away from my first 20 pound goal.  How the heck is it possible to lose 20 pounds in a week and a half?  I mean, really?  20 pounds?  That's insane!  INSANE!  I'm sure the first "few" pounds come off the easiest but it's almost getting my hopes up too much.  Maybe it really WILL be possible to get to my goal weight?  Statistics seem to weigh against it but hell, if I can lose 20 pounds in one week why not?  On the flip side, it could mean that I'm losing super fast now and I will come to a dead stop soon?  Let's hope it's the former, not the later.

On a different note, it's getting easier to see how the temptations in life sabotage so many WLS patients.  My mom is still in town and today we went to Costco to pick up a few essentials and get out of the house.  It was sample day and soooo hard to say no!  I think if I was feeling worse, had dumping or nausea it might be easier.  But I feel perfectly fine.  I could easily have chewed and swallowed the the pretzel samples they were given away.  The Famous Amos cookie sample would have gone down well with the milk.  And the rhye bread with olive spread would have probably settled just fine in my seemingly ironclad new stomach.  And really, would a well chewed piece of ham have harmed me?  But I'm TRYING to be good.  I'm TRYING to take things slow despite my mind and body's insistance that nothing has changed.  So I avoided the cookies (I did drink the mild, though- protein=good), the pretzels and other "junk".  And boy was it hard!  Why can't I have a little bit of that nausea/dumping/vomiting just to keep me in check?  Who would have thought I'd be asking for it?  Really?  Am I nuts?

Even coming home, I look at all the temptations around the house.  My husbands chips in the cupboard.  I remember how good that salt felt on my tongue before I would chew.  I'd just let it sit there for a second and absorb it.  Mmmm.  The pickles in the fridge- they look delicious too.  And the Hershey bars I found stored in the freezer...one little nibble wouldn't hurt, would it?  Ahhhh!  The temptations are everywhere. 

So for now, I'm avoiding the pickles, the chocolate, the nuts and all the other foods I'm used to and sticking with my 1/2 cup of fat free refried beans.  It isn't the same and it certainly wont get rid of my chocolate craving but it's a step in the right direction.  Hopefully tomorrow will reward me with my first goal of a 20 pound loss!

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