4 weeks out!

Aug 24, 2011

Wow- today is my four week surgiversary.  It's amazing how fast time flies.  I meant to weigh myself this morning but forgot.  It's probably for the best. 

Reflecting back on these last four weeks brings to light the wild ride I have been on.  After voluntarily agreeing to have a surgeon rearrange my stomach and bowels I have made a life change that still astonishes me.  After my initial major loss, I have started dropping about 4 pounds a week for a total of 27 pounds so far.  27 pounds doesn't seem like that much but I think the last 27 pounds I gained went straight to my face and neck.  Now, when I look in the mirror, I see a definite difference.  Heck, today I caught a quick glimpse in the bathroom mirror at work and had to do a double take.  I'm shrinking!  

I'm still nervous about the thought of failing.  I had an appointment with the therapist I was seeing pre-surgery yesterday and we had some good conversations about it.  She challenged me to start thinking in the moment and not focusing on what is ahead.  She also reminded me that just because someone says it on the message boards doesn't mean it's true for everyone.  Very good points but I have come to rely on this board so much for advice and guidance it's hard to let go of some of it.  But it's probably not a bad idea.  Yesterday I didn't even look at OH once, all day.  I didn't even do my usual nightly blog.  And you know what...I didn't really miss it that much.  Maybe it's time to start living life for myself and seeing what works for me instead of relying on OH?  I'm just not sure...

I'm still in exhaustion mode with a dislike for going to bed.  Sort of an oxymoron but true.  I took a sleeping pill last night and conked out for 11 hours.  It was great and I'm actually ready for bed at a decent time tonight.  I wish I had some more energy to exercise, though.  I haven't even taken one walk this week.  Which is pretty much my usual when it comes to exercise...try it for a week and then quit.  UGH.  I NEEED to change this!  

But that's it...four weeks.  Almost a full month.  I made it this far without any major problems so here's to another month of success!

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