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Had a check up today and I'm down 92 pounds from my highest weight.  Had a stricture repaired or stretched on June 4, 2007.  I think I let it go to long,  the surgeon said I had just a pinhole.  But things are much better now.    After 7 months I've learned to replace eating with exercise and actually look forward to going to the gym and sweating away my stress......I never would have though I'd be like that.      My weight loss in numbers has slowed,  but on the tanita scale (that breaks down what part is fat, what part is fat free, what part is water, etc)  I've lost alot of fat,  but my fat free mass has increased which means I'm replacing fat with muscle.    And I am glad. 

well,  I was certainly a cheery sort when I last wrote, but I'm happy to say I am on more of an even keel now than I was then.    I've lost 62 pounds, and here are some of the new things in my life....or things that I've welcomed back;

1.  being able to see to shave my legs
2.  shaving my legs, ha ha
3.  stairs
4.  sleeping well
5.  having most everything in my closet fit
6.  moving the car seat up to a place where I don't have to drive with       
      my tiptoes
7.  periods
8.  my cheekbones
9.  my wristbones
10. my hipbones
11. learning that gratification doesn't have to be in an instant, that it 
       usually isn't found in the kitchen, and that like most things,  its 
       better if you don't rush it!
12. Feeling happy about me.


Here's to the continuation.

Today was my first day back to work and I feel like I almost never had surgery at all,   and I don't mean that in a good way.    The stress and work and worry is all back and I responded in true form by eating eating eating.   I didn't eat anything that I wasn't supposed to,  but I did eat what feels like half my weight in soy crisps and low carb yogurt.   I feel bloated and disgusting.   I hate it when I do this, and I'm so disheartened that it has happened again so quickly into the process.   Years ago,  before I had my children,  I went through a pretty serious bulemic period, and I have found myself today wanting to "purge"  because I can't stand this guilty feeling I have about the eating.   I wonder when I will ever find a way to deal with my stress without stuffing my mouth.    

Well,  I'm one month post op,  give or take a few days,  and I just got back from seeing the surgeon for a check up.   I've lost a total of 31 pounds from pre-surgical weight,  still so so so far to go,  but I should dwell on the success not whine about the road ahead.   My blood sugars are fantastic,   fasting at about 79 on average,  which feels VERY different from the usual 280 or so they used to be.  they don't get above 120 ever these days.   I'm off all diabetes medication except one lantus injection at night (Down from about 10 injections per day).   They've started reducing my heart meds as well,  although the cardiomyopathy may have had a viral cause,  and so I may be stuck with some of that for the rest of my life,  which is ok.         I am feeling quite energetic and I go back to work on Monday.  I hope this continues to work as well as it has.    

I am now 4 1/2 days post op, and back home.   I'm feeling better overall than I thought I would,  still relying on some pain meds during the day....Still have my drain which will be removed on Thursday,  thank god.  That thing looks like a gross grenade.     I feel like I"m eating more food than I need,  which is an odd feeling.    One thing I didn't expect was to get so dehydrated.    I have never been so dry!   And I now have a fever blister the size of Michigan.      Not ready to evaluate how I feel about it all......  We'll re-evaluate at a later time.   Glad I made it through and am so grateful for everyone's support.    Dr's Gerig and Murphy are wonderful surgeons and personable on top of that.