Now what....

Mar 31, 2010

The more I learn the more unsure I am about which surgery would work the best for me!  I'm hoping that my appointment next week with the surgeon will help me at least lean more one way or the other.  I thought I knew what I wanted, but now I'm so undecided!

Obviously I won't be having ANY surgery until I get to a point where I am sure about it.  This is also my only chance, won't be able to do any revisions or change procedures later.  Insurance only pays once.  So I need to be sure.  I was leaning more toward the lap band, but then I started to worry I wouldn't be able to lose the weight I want to lose.  People can, but do I have what it takes?

I'm trying to cut back my eating now, but so far not so good.  Caved and had a toaster pastry, but I didn't completely pig out, so I suppose that's somewhat good.  I need to get motivated to get back on the exercise bike (after I unload all the clothes that are laying on it!).  Today my back and knee hurt quite a bit, so not sure I could have done it, even if I had gotten my behind on the thing, but I need to get back to it.  I wish it didn't hurt so much to walk, it was beautiful today and I would have loved to take a walk.

Tomorrow is another day.  Hopefully I will sleep better tonight.  I was up most of the night wondering about next week when I go to the nutrition group and meet the doctor.  I'm a bit nervous about it....ok,  A LOT nervous about it.  Feeling really shy.

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