Michelle P.

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Hello all...I can't believe how long it's been since I have last posted.I am now 1 1/2 yrs post op and have been holding steady with my weight for the last 6 months. I haven't lost or gained. I have lost 131 pounds and honestly would love to get rid of 20 more.

Finally I reached that magical number I have lost 100 pounds!!! So Ishould be happy right? Well I am but in this strange way I am still ashamed that I had that much to lose and then some...

I am keeping my fingers crossed but it seems like the hair loss may be slowing down!
I am a flabby mess and I don't work out nearly as much as I should!! Bad I know all about it. Seriously though I better hope i hit the lottery or something for plastic surgery.

Well I have been kind of lazy about updating lately! So here it goes.. I went for my 5 month check up on Friday and I am now down 87lbs! the last 2 months have been so slow...on an average around 2.5 lbs per week! Wow can that make you crazy! I guess it's better to go slow then not at all!

My life is so nuts right now that I have not been able to set aside the time for exercise as much as I should be. I am desperately hoping to find the time soon and step it back up! I really want 40 more pounds off by Christmas! If I can do 15 a month for Oct and Nov and another 10 by the 25th I'll be there! I'm thinking of going back to phase I to try and jump start this!

Let's see on the homefront I guess my life is getting a little easier..I did meet someone new and have been dating and for the most part it seems to be really headed in the right direction! I'm sure that can turn easily enough though! Keep your fingers crossed for me! I need something good to happen!

The good news..I am down 80lbs and for the most part aside from my normal complaints I am doing well in the weight loss department.

The bad news...after 19 years my marriage that was already very strained has finally broke. My husband has turned to drugs many times through out his life and our life together...well once again he has gone down that path and this time I can't help him. I am actually sick of helping him I have finally come to realize I was more like a mother to him then a wife. I don't know what has snapped in me but this time I am so much stronger, I am no longer easily manipulated. For the 1st time his words have just rolled off me..I know longer care if he tells me I'm fat or that I look disgusting..He tried real hard to break me down but this time I am too numb to care!

I am sure this surgery has given me the strength to move on with my life and for that I am so greatful..the road will be long and hard but I have made it this far..It's time for me to start living for me!

70 lbs gone it feels like it is taking forever. I was hoping to have 100 lbs gone in 5 months doesn't look like that is going to happen..I figured oh well I am going slow maybe my hair won't be too messed up by it.. well WRONG I still continue to cry every time I take a shower and have to brush my hair. How vain right? But for the longest time it's all I had! I don't know if I should just cut some of the length off now or just wait this out..my roots are horribel but I am scared to death to have color done!

I am now done 62lbs..but I still feel so huge and disgusted with myself. The flabby skin is kind of freaking me out and it also seems like my hair is starting to shed more..which is totally freaking me out!

I have not lost a single pound in the past week! This is very very upsetting to me but I will get back on track..52lbs in 11 weeks is still good right? Oh and here is a word of advice be very careful about your old habits sneaking up on you..I have found myself "grazing" I'm not real interested in real food but will find myself picking at wheat thins or cheese doodles..really any kind of chips are working for me..sometimes I'm not even hungry but will be bored or stressed at work and will snack and in return I for go a meal....not good I know! I'm nipping this one right in the bud.

I forgot to post this last week! When I hit the 10 week mark on Thursday the 5th of July I was down 52 lbs. I hardly ever eat anymore, I can't get three meals a day in and I am horrible at getting that protien in. It's not for lack of trying because I am honestly making an effort to do things right!

I have also slacked off on exercise which I vow to get back on track this week. I feel like I do not have enough hours in the day, I have been working so much lately!

So far my biggest wow moment has been not being so bothered by the heat! I used to get ultra bitchy in the heat but I seem to be tolerating it way better now then I have in a long time!

Went for my two month check up today..I am down a total of 44lbs! I was a little bummed about the slow progress but Dr. K told me not to worry that I was loosing very fast. He said the average person looses 10 lbs per month..I was like WHAT? that seems way to low..well anyway the moral of this story is he said it's just fine.

Everything else was great blood pressure, pulse etc.I am starting to actually sleep better so I have a feeling it may be good bye to sleep apnea yeah!

Well that's about it for now..

I am down 37lbs! I still have a long way to go!