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My story begins on August 21, 1979! Why?; you ask, cause thats the day i was born, duh!!!LOL!!! I am 29, going to be 30 really soon. I have been chubby all my life. I use to swim on a swim team and win races, no one knew how my body and my huge belly went so fast! I swam 2 to 3 hours a day, both before and after school, I loved to compete. But, grade nine started, and it wasnt COOL to smell like clorine all the time ( and yes before you ask, i did wash). So I quit, cold turkey! Within a couple months my weight sky-rocketed to 200lbs. At age 15 this was HUGE. As i struggeled to fit in and find friends develop relationships I realized this was next to impossible to do with my current size. With other "in-house" issues going on with my family, i decided to make the stupidest decision and go bulimic. It was great, I thought. I didnt have to give up anything that i wanted to eat. This worked too, I went down to 165ibs. Then after about 4 to 5 months i started having black-outs and realized maybe now was time to GET SMART about my weight. I decided to stop doing that, and start exercising. This worked and I kept the weight that I had previously lost, off. Well that brings us to college, I did well going away, met new friends who had no need to judge me on my weight because i was only a little chubby, and happy with my body. The came university, well i had packed on about 35 lbs during the year away at college (couldnt have been the KD i was eating everyday,LOL). Now 200 LBS i started my first relationship, well the first and only real one i ever had. I was in love with this guy since i was 15. Funny story to tell you the truth, I fell in love with this guy because at the age of 15, my best friend and I (i must point out that my best friend was a skinny little barbie doll) walked into a store, and the man behind the counter, MY MAN, only looked at me, it was like my best friend was not even in the room, I was like HELLO DONT YOU SEE THIS KNOCK OUT RIGHT BESIDE ME HERE!! But he didnt care, he liked me. So after we got together, I got pregnant. I was 19, and didnt know how a real relationship worked because i had never ever seen one, so i broke up with him. Still in love with him, I tried and tried to get him back. On my son's first birthday, i though, well enough is enough I must get over this guy, I went to a party and came home pregnant. So thats my second son. Then MY MAN saw that he might not have me if he didnt say he too still liked me, so we got back together. He proposed completely to my surprise on Christmas Eve 2001. We started planning our wedding, but there was a catch, he finally told me that if i wanted to marry him, i would half to have his baby, because the last baby in my body was another man's. WHERE"S THE LOGIC, there was none I was in love. We decided to get pregnant, go to Niagara Falls, get married, and live happily ever after. NOT!!! Well I held up my end, i got pregnant, we went to Nigara Falls, and on our wedding day, he dumped me. When I was 5 months pregnant with my 3rd baby, he left to teach overseas, leaving me with 3 babies ot raise all on my own. Well I did it, til i got sick. Then I leaned on my family to help me out, turning out to be a court battle that has just recently added. I was in the hosiptal for a year and then took about a year to get better, and fine just fighting for my kids the other almost 4 years. Oh ya and 2 years ago on my way to visit my son in Barrie I got into a motor vechile accident and screwed up my back, and on came 50 pounds, now here i sit at 240... :( thanks for the read
