Diane,
Congratulations on your date. It is kinda' like having a baby I guess - with us being the babies!!! Everything is new and different and we must relearn it all over again. It's a new life. Another chance to learn coping differently, and more healthy. I left Modesto in June of last year......there's a great support network there - be sure to take advantage of it - it will be your best friend. Blessings and may you remain in the safe hands of God.