Samuel Hill

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I have decided to use the OH site as a place where I can be honest with my thoughts.  I have been dealing with depression my entire life and just recently have been getting some professional help. I have a great support team in my life, but I, for some reason, always want more. I don't seem to matter to anyone, but I know that is just my brain spewing negative thoughts into my soul.  I let those things affect me too often.  I get depressed when no one reads my blogs, or watches my YouTube videos, or cares to call me.  I let others affect my mood too much, but is it so wrong to want to be noticed.  I spent my entire life in the shadows and now I want people to see me and want to interact with me.  Sometimes when I think these things, I feel like I am just being selfish and just long for attention... maybe I am... maybe I do.  I don't know.  I just wish someone would take an interest in me.

Ok, done.  Who knows if I will ever post again, but at least this helped me tonight.