Hi Donna, I have surgery in 10 days, and I totally undersstand how you must feel. It's like you've been waiting your whole life for a way to be a healthy weight, and you are sooooo close, and bam! It's pulled away from you like a carrot on a stick. This too will pass, and I'm sure he'll get you back in there soon. Everything DOES happen for a reason. I will be sending thoughts your way. Hang in there! Susanna