9 days and counting

Jul 14, 2009

so i started visiting this website about a year ago..it really doesnt feel that long ago. when i started i was in such a hurry to get my surgery i did not want to wait at all and i was so frustrated that i had a 6 mth weight loss program i had to go through.  luckily i had already been going for about 3 mths when my insurance changed..i finished my weight loss program in jan and i was approved for my surgery in june..i had to have all my tests done before they would submit to the insurance company..now i am only 9 days away..i have been concerned that i was doing the wrong thing several times.  i mean even though i have been trying to get this done for 9 yrs and it is now happening i started to still doubt it...but not anymore.  this is what i want this is what i need..my life is not my own and it hasnt been for years..i no longer live i am no longer the person i feel i am inside..i want to not just live ...i want to live life..this surgery will be hard and i will have to change the things i do and dont do but isnt that the point...i want a change and to make a change i have to change..im still scared and im still worried about what kind of problems that could occur...but if i dont have the surgery i will be worried about other things and what other problems could occur...so i know this is right ..

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