Creating the new ME!

Sep 12, 2014

I realized I have been harassing my dr's office just a bit  with questions and  information.   I realized it just recently and tried to make myself stop so now I am  the boards more. Not that they complained in fact they have been very nice and  professional in answering my questions and calls.  I am wondering if this fixation on contacting them is because they are the link from my old life to the new one.  I  feel I am l in an in between stage right now.  I know this  will be permanent change, so I am no longer the obese me with the habits I had and the disregard for my body,  but I am not yet the thin me  either with the new body , new habits and new way of life.  I am in transition.  I am enjoying the milestones and each lb lost and each new NSV but I would so much like to be in the next stage.  The stage where I know how to live with my sleeve, to  know what I look like thin, what I eat daily. I am not sure I am making any sense. Good or bad I just want to BE, feel like I am in the process of creating the new me. 

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