SooGorg3ous
***Bl3ssings All Around Us***
Apr 22, 2012
Hey Loves 
just doing some reflections today. So many times I get caught in whats going on right now and really not looking at the whole journey fully. Friday was my grandmother's birthday and Saturday was her birthday party, she's 93. I sat down and was able to talk to her before everyone else got there. She told me she was proud of me for taking authority of my life And because I'm such a humble, smart, and sweet woman I'd face animosity and adversity moreso than others, but not to let it change who I am. Never let the actions and deceit of others dictate your character were her exact words. I love my grandmother. I haven't really been around my family because my work schedule never really allowed me to be. Most of my family didn't even recognize me and asked my mom who I was lol. My mother and father were so proud to gloat and tell them how much I've managed to accomplish within a year. I used to be sooo shy and intimidated and to an extent I still am. This weightloss is forcing me to change that. I have this shell that I'm slowly breaking out of. My desire to excel has somehow affected my whole life and its happening right under my nose. I have no reason to be depressed but sometimes it happens. Sometimes I drift back into myself and my fiance' has made me realize that when I do it it affects everyone who is around me. I never thought of how it affected everyone else. I just thought about me but now I see I have a responsibility to myself as well as others to keep myself in check. Not look at so many negatives so many times. I start school again soon and I worry that since I've been out of a university so long how will I fit in with such a younger crowd. Not that I'm worried as far as competiton, its just I haven't really been social in the past four months. I really want to take advantage of this college life experience as I really have no big responsibilities. I didn't take advantage of my first year at Bennett. I was in shock really, just being out of hs and having that much freedom. Meeting new ppl from different places is what I truly focused on lol. I still maintained an alright gpa though. Just wasn't focused on books and studies really. Now that I'm older I want to experience it all and take advantage of every opportunity I can. Really become an example to the teenage girls I work with and my nieces and nephews. I have the opportunity to inspire great change in someone's life now. I think I'm slowly but surely embracing that. Iooooove it.......until next time keep smiling :-)
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just doing some reflections today. So many times I get caught in whats going on right now and really not looking at the whole journey fully. Friday was my grandmother's birthday and Saturday was her birthday party, she's 93. I sat down and was able to talk to her before everyone else got there. She told me she was proud of me for taking authority of my life And because I'm such a humble, smart, and sweet woman I'd face animosity and adversity moreso than others, but not to let it change who I am. Never let the actions and deceit of others dictate your character were her exact words. I love my grandmother. I haven't really been around my family because my work schedule never really allowed me to be. Most of my family didn't even recognize me and asked my mom who I was lol. My mother and father were so proud to gloat and tell them how much I've managed to accomplish within a year. I used to be sooo shy and intimidated and to an extent I still am. This weightloss is forcing me to change that. I have this shell that I'm slowly breaking out of. My desire to excel has somehow affected my whole life and its happening right under my nose. I have no reason to be depressed but sometimes it happens. Sometimes I drift back into myself and my fiance' has made me realize that when I do it it affects everyone who is around me. I never thought of how it affected everyone else. I just thought about me but now I see I have a responsibility to myself as well as others to keep myself in check. Not look at so many negatives so many times. I start school again soon and I worry that since I've been out of a university so long how will I fit in with such a younger crowd. Not that I'm worried as far as competiton, its just I haven't really been social in the past four months. I really want to take advantage of this college life experience as I really have no big responsibilities. I didn't take advantage of my first year at Bennett. I was in shock really, just being out of hs and having that much freedom. Meeting new ppl from different places is what I truly focused on lol. I still maintained an alright gpa though. Just wasn't focused on books and studies really. Now that I'm older I want to experience it all and take advantage of every opportunity I can. Really become an example to the teenage girls I work with and my nieces and nephews. I have the opportunity to inspire great change in someone's life now. I think I'm slowly but surely embracing that. Iooooove it.......until next time keep smiling :-)
My TRanSiTion101- RElatiOnsHipS {FrIEnDs} etc. .... ReALly?!
Apr 09, 2012
Hi all,
I'm not really new to OH I had an account before but idk what happened...Oh well time for something new. My topic extends from me gaining the understanding and assumption that people who you thought were friends may simply not be able to handle your physical transformation. I'm not here with the purpose of analyzing YOUR relationships but seriously this is MY p.o.v. Before I decided to make this change I really had no understanding of how and why it may affect the people around me. I love me some me :-) my attitude, the way I carry myself, the way I interact and empathize with others in my eyes are amazing. So when I decided to go this route I knew physically I'd undergo changes but as far as my inner self I was always gonna be Gerilyn. But at some point when the scale started changing so did the people I thought were the closest to me. That hurt. I assumed they'd be supportive throughout my whole journey not just the beginning when there wasn't such a dramatic change with my body. As time went on and challenges of life arose they seemed to turn away from me. "Everyone isn't meant to always be there", my mother told me but for some reason I just kept trying to figure out why. I mean I didn't treat them any differently before or after my transition, so what's going on? After an incident at work which has left me out since January, I've been going to therapy. This has helped alot emotionally as well as mentally. I felt as though I had no outs, like no one understood where I was coming from. Of course I got attention from men before but it was no where in comparison to this. Its a big adjustment and sometimes it feels like someone is always watching but now its magnified. I get out of things easier now just because my looks and I catch myself thinking, its that serious and easy, really?? But anywhoo I have to say some of the things I took for granted while being bigger was actually being comfortable around people in my own skin not feeling judged or like so many eyes were on me so I could go about without being noticed in my own world. I didn't hate my size, I accepted,loved, and embraced it. I made the change for health reasons and those reasons alone. Now that I'm smaller I have to learn to embrace a whole new healthier slimmer me. I don't hate it but it is an everyday adjustment. I don't really know how to shop for this body haven't really been shopping like I used to but hey it'll all come to pass. Just wanted to shine some light on some of the ups and downs of my weightloss transition
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I'm not really new to OH I had an account before but idk what happened...Oh well time for something new. My topic extends from me gaining the understanding and assumption that people who you thought were friends may simply not be able to handle your physical transformation. I'm not here with the purpose of analyzing YOUR relationships but seriously this is MY p.o.v. Before I decided to make this change I really had no understanding of how and why it may affect the people around me. I love me some me :-) my attitude, the way I carry myself, the way I interact and empathize with others in my eyes are amazing. So when I decided to go this route I knew physically I'd undergo changes but as far as my inner self I was always gonna be Gerilyn. But at some point when the scale started changing so did the people I thought were the closest to me. That hurt. I assumed they'd be supportive throughout my whole journey not just the beginning when there wasn't such a dramatic change with my body. As time went on and challenges of life arose they seemed to turn away from me. "Everyone isn't meant to always be there", my mother told me but for some reason I just kept trying to figure out why. I mean I didn't treat them any differently before or after my transition, so what's going on? After an incident at work which has left me out since January, I've been going to therapy. This has helped alot emotionally as well as mentally. I felt as though I had no outs, like no one understood where I was coming from. Of course I got attention from men before but it was no where in comparison to this. Its a big adjustment and sometimes it feels like someone is always watching but now its magnified. I get out of things easier now just because my looks and I catch myself thinking, its that serious and easy, really?? But anywhoo I have to say some of the things I took for granted while being bigger was actually being comfortable around people in my own skin not feeling judged or like so many eyes were on me so I could go about without being noticed in my own world. I didn't hate my size, I accepted,loved, and embraced it. I made the change for health reasons and those reasons alone. Now that I'm smaller I have to learn to embrace a whole new healthier slimmer me. I don't hate it but it is an everyday adjustment. I don't really know how to shop for this body haven't really been shopping like I used to but hey it'll all come to pass. Just wanted to shine some light on some of the ups and downs of my weightloss transition
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Durham, NC
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07/19/2011
Surgery Date
Apr 08, 2012
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