Stephanie175
3/29/05:
It has been almost 3 months since my RNY. I had it done on January 3, 2005. These past three months have truely been a roller coaster. I have referred to the message board daily for ideas, inspirations and failures. So from this day forward I plan to document my process.
I weighed eysterday mornign and weigh 228.5. The puts me at 64.5 pounds lost since surgery, however since last March I havelost 100.5. ( I had done WW for 5-6 months) My eating is still not good. I usually have a low carb slim fast in themorning, cream of chicken soup for lunch and a small whatever my family is having for dinner. Today was out of the normal. My husband drank all my protein drinks and did not tell me...he is not overweight nor a wls patient. he jsut wnted it. (Jerk)
Work is very slo today. End of month. You would think in the mortgage industry things would be a little bit more hopping, but so it goes.
My daily struggle today, is trying to get enough water in. I still do not get enough water or protein in. Still a daily struggle to not throw up. I am going to the dr on monday and will discuss with him. Talk to you soon.
3/30/05
Last night was not pleasant, I asked for protein suggetions yesterday on the messsageboard. Received some awesome responses. Thanks for all the fish suggestions. I went to HY-Vee last night, got lots of healthy stuff. Bought shrip, halibut and orange roughy. May the fish god's bless me. When I got home, I fixed chili dogs and curley fries formy family. I ate some Bugles and then a small bowl of chili with shredded cheese on it. Only took about 4 bites...became very ill. Was sick all night, and when I mean all night, I mean until 5:15 this morning. Did not think I could make it to work. But the way I looked at it, I could go to work and be miserable (and get paid) or stay at home and be miserable and not get paid...hhhhmmmm? Anyway, I am feeling a little better now. I have drank 1/2 slim fast (protein of 20G) Had a feew sips of water and that is it so far. I am going to the dr. on Monday for my 3 month post op-I am going to tell him still having problems eating ANYTHING. Last time I spoke with him, he said he might do the scope on me to determine the size of my pouch. I was afrain for him to do this, because I do not want to stretch it too much in fear aof not losing, however, I do want to be able to eat eventually. I will write more later.
3/31/05
Last night was better with retrospect to me feeling okay. As far as hubby not. It started off with me making Tuna Salad with boiled eggs from easter (3 days ago) and dill pickles. I made it up with my girls help and they loved it. Once they heard him start complaining they started complaining. But I was pretty pleased with myself. I toasted a piece of wheat bread ( I actually did two) The retoasted it, and decided I only wanted one piece and put a piece of cheese on it and spread the tuna salad on it and 1/4 cup of bugles. I ate about 1/2 the sandwich, which was very yummy. My hubby did not eat his sandwich, he threw it away. (Again jerk) Then for snack I has sugar free pudding, I could not eat much of this....kind heavy.
As far as being in a better mood I am. It feels so good when people compliment you. Today I am feeling pretty good. I drank a protein drink, I tried to eat 3/4 cup of Carb Well cereal. That did not set well. Then I had a slim fast prtein bar. I have had 16.9 ounces of water though. Bad me. I have to go for blood work in the morning. So I am fasting at 8:00 pm. (I usually do not eat after then anyway). However I am doing a shrimp stirfry tonite and I think I will do rice with it. We will see. My family will LOVE this one. But you know what...so be it. They should try just like I try. I am little tired today but I think that is due to the weather. :)
Write more later or tomorrow. Sleep well.
4/6/05
Been a while since I wrote. I went to my 3 month check up on the 3rd. I have lost 70.5 pounds as of that day...today I have lost 72 pounds. My labs came back with low protein, imagine that? I found this lady in my area that has a protein bakery and looks pretty reasonable. Im going to try some of her stuff to help get the protein in. I am also trying to focus on water. I am getting more in. I stated back to the gym swimming on Monday at 5:00 am, I swam for 30 minutes. Yesterday I did my Walk away the pounds DVD for 2 miles, was a little wore out. Was supposed to go the gym today, however, I was beat tired. I will walk tonite either the one or 2 mile. Depending on how I feel. I will keep you posted.
4/8/05
I went to my real Support Group last night. I finally got to meet a person that I had met on the message boards. Its nice to put a face with a name. I was really impressed with the support group. I realize everything I am going thru, someone else either has experienced it or is experiencing it. One of the nurse's Billi was our moderator and she was so helpful (she is the one that gave me my savior call to let me know I had been approved last December) I have not had much protein today, I am going to purchase from bariatric.eating.com this weekend to get some samples. That is my goal for the next month to get in at leat 65 grams of protein a day.....that is like triple what I am getting in now. Im still feeling a little lost and dissasociated with my husband. Its like he is reaping the benefits of me having more energy and desire to do more (like laundry, mopping, yard work....etc) He better wake up and take notice or someone else will....but that is a whole other story.
Gotta get back to work, just thought I would drop a few lines and I would recommend the Support groups in your area. Because It helped me along with my confusions.
Talk to you soon
6/27/05 ~
Wow~ I cannot believe I have not updated in 2 months. Boy what two months does. As I read thru my last entry. I have not been to another support group. The one in May was a vendor meeting to try and sell products to patients. Not interested just yet. The one in June was a talk about feelings of post-op. I thought this one would of been interesting however something else came up, like my daughters softball team. (they won of course)
As far as things between my husband and I. They are good now. I told him I have enough energy to go around the world and back and that I wanted him to be with me on this journey. I just talked about my feelings and how much more confident I am of myself and US. I think it went well. I did tell him, that the opposite sex is getting a little friendly with me so he best watch out:) He is noticing it as well. Its nice that he pulls me closer and wants to hold my hand in public. Its great!
As far as the diet goes. I eat nothing but protein items. Recently I have tried fruit. I love summer fruit. Strawberries, cantalope, watermelon (have not ate much of the last one, I have heard people dump on it...I love it so much I do not want to experience this and ruin it forever, so I will hold off for a month or so)
I reached my goal that I set for myself this morning. I wanted to lose 100 lbs by my 6th month check up. Whic is July 6th. Well officially today I have lost 101.5. Go me doing the happy dance. Now I will take them at 5 pounds each! I hope to get to 140-145. We will see. Well I am going to check out the message boards now. It feels great to be in the century club.
Grinning from cheek to cheek:)
Stephanie
7/5/05:
Wow, what a weekend! Food was everywhere. I had a few doubts of having the surgery due to the "WANT" to eat. But I truley think that is how we all got to what we were. Eating out of WANT instead of NEED. This weekend was pretty hot. I think I was a little dehydrated. Today, I have already drank 15 ounces of orange juice, took my b12-my centrum multivitamin. I am still struggling with that darn calcium. A fellow wls person told me about a chewable that is at wal-mart, so I will be going to get those soon. Hope all had a great weekend and got their protein in.
Well Husband is back to the norm....very distant and moody. Not wanting to be lovey or show PDA. I hate that. I guess I will just have to keep living and enjoying the life that the Good Lord gave me and if the lucky man comes by, then so be it.
Ta-Ta for now.
Stephanie
Ta-Ta for now~
Stephanie
7/12/05 -
Update on the husband issue....legally seperated. I read alot about this before surgery, but I truly believed it would make things better. However in my case, it made worse ...and better. He has been out of the house for about 3 months now. LIfe is good, I have gained alot of independence and security in myself which is good. My kids are doing well with the changes in their life....they spend every other weekend with their dad. So those weekends I do not have them is my time to reflect on me and have fun. (don't get me wrong I have a blast with them) But for Mommy to go out....it bothers them a little.
I have picked up the exercise in walking....I need to get to the gym to start working on toning the inner thighs and work on stomach muscles.
Only have 42 more pounds to go to reach goal.....getting exciting. I hope to reach that by December.
Keeping everyone in my thoughts...
Ta-ta for now~
Stephanie
7/13/05
Hey there. Dropped another 2 pounds....40 to go. Getting real exciting.. Starting hot and heavy back at the gym tonite....need to do some toning.
Will drop a line later!
Confused today
Stephanie
7/14/05:
Health wise everything is wonderful...total lose is 140 gone from this body forever. I was excited. I did not realize it was that much til I got out my handy dandy calculator. anyways...no update from chat room fella. Still thinking about him..am I insane or what? I just wish He would call me....hint hint.
I went back to the gym yesterday....can barely walk, however did my 2 mile power walk at lunch today...it was a hot mug out there.
Hopefully my pics will be here shortly.
Later Gators~
Stephanie
7/18/05
What a weekend, Had girls night out....danced until 3:00 am......weighed today, lost another 3 pounds. Who would of thought. I was so excited. I have only 33 pounds to go to get to goal! Excited! What a rush this has all been. Plan to up my protein again this week, to 85 a day! Plus add another 10 ounces of water intake. We will see how that goes......Have a great week!
Stephanie
7/26/05
Been a fast week. I have officially lost (total, not from surgery) 150 pounds. I have 29 more to goal. I am so excited. Life is GREAT again. Enjoying meeting people and having fun. Just thought I would post. I will be sending in more updated pics soon.
8/1/05
Well, It's August 1. Almost 8 months out...Total lose from my highest weight is 154. since surgery122. My goal was to be at 175 by august 12. I reached that today. Feels great. I have been having dizzy spells lately. Talked to a Great friend about this who also had surgery and he advised me that he had the same deal. I am going to call my dr. today to just make sure. I did not exercise at all all weekend....I know I know. Other things going on that I am trying to focus on. I hope that all who read my post get benefits from my wls. This is the best thing that I could of ever done. Gotta get to work.
8/29/05
Gosh, I cannot believe it has been a month. So much has happened in this last month. Lets see, August 10, divorce was final. Had a GREAT time kicking off the single life. No names will be mentioned. But you know who you are. I am sure you read this often. I have met so many great friends thru OH and I treasure each and every one of them. My challenges are still ahead of me and I plan on tackling them. I am discovering me and I love the new me. This new life has given me the strength to achieve any goal I set my mind to. I may get knocked back ever now and then, but hey that is what life throws at us, right? I know I am rambling here...LOL
One of my friends that I met thru OH are going to the Chicago convention. I cannot wait. I am so looking forward to meeting new and old friends.....some I have a few words to exchange with them, not in a bad way....do not get me wrong. I hope "others' decide to go and have fun with us.
I will try to post more frequently. I have lost another 2.5 pounds so total of 159 gone forever. I have 20 more to go reach my goal. I never in a million years thought I would reach this weight. I cannot even remember the last time I was at this weight! It is so EXCITING and NEW. The one thing I would have to say, and do not take this the wrong way.....is I truley love me now and if you love yourself you can love others the way they should be loved!
Have a wonderful day:)
April 29, 2006
Hello to all my friends and not so friends...lol! Life has been wonderful. Thru this journey of weight loss alot has happened in my personal life as well. I have met some AMAZING people and some NOT so AMAZING. Its very strange how people treat you differently because of weight issues. People seem to be so much nicer and kinder to me now then previously. I still look at myself at the "heavy" mom, or the "bigger" friend....and those that did not know me before say the infamous comment....."I would have never guessed that you were heavy" What kind of comment is that? Would you treat me differently? Oh well. Back to the weight loss thingy....well I am still right at losing the 175 pounds. I truly wanted to get down to the 150 mark, but for some reason my body is not having anything to do with that number at all. Were close but not close enough. I know that I have not been able to get to the gym and I have not truley been dedicated on the diet. Chocolate is my new best friend.....I wish we did not get along....but low and behold.....I wish I could eat beef. So many post ops tell me they can eat beef but not chicken or fish.....I can eat chicken and fish.....but a steak sounds so much better. Maybe some day. I have a new job in a field that I love immensly and the pay is reasonable. But hey we all want to make more than what we are making, right? I just wanted to update a little and let you know that Im still kicking and surgery was well worth the roughly traveled path. Love ya all~
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6/20/06 - As you can see I have added some pictures....the first two have the dates...
But the third one is very recent. Its me and my little one at a softball game. June 2006. Just thought I would give an update.
Im back to the basics...water, protein, and exercise....
Talk to you soon
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