Sugrmomma
Feeling pressured and disgusted
Apr 12, 2009
Today, I am at work. I woke up this morning and got on the scale. I haven't lost an ounce ... in fact I have gained a pound. I am not sure why my body is rebelling.I went shopping this weekend. I had a really rough time. I tried on clothes and I am in between sizes and my giant belly looks like I am pregnant! It seems like my upper body and legs are getting trimmer much faster than my disgusting stomach (of which I have always hated!!). I look like I swallowed a beach ball. I wonder if I am bi-polar?? sometimes I love myself and feel like I look great ... but my other bitchy personality tells me that I am fat now and will always be fat, no matter how hard I try.
My brain keeps telling me that I have come a long way and to give myself a break, but the rest of me is not listening. I guess I just need to suck it up, pull up my big girl panties and deal with it!!!!!
I will write again when my head is in the right place.
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About Me
Justin, TX
Location
39.4
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Surgery
11/14/2008
Surgery Date
Jul 02, 2008
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