susanraywilliams
I THINK I'M OBSESSED!
Sep 26, 2011
I think I'm obsessed about WLS!! All I keep thinking about is WLS. The closer I get the more I think about it. I go in to my pre-op appointment on this Thurs. Then I have my surgery scheduled for Oct 11.
I'm weighing every morning because I have to be at 303lbs so I don't have to go on a liquid diet before surgery (except for the day before). I think it's more about failing or not meeting that deadline.
I don't believe I will do that once I have the WLS. It's just right now I have to meet that mark!!
I surprised myself a few minutes ago when I started crying. I wasn't sure why I was crying at first. I was looking at the before/after pictures and all I could think about was how much I want to be at the size after my son was born (16 yrs ago).
I weighed 145 lbs and wore a size 10. I felt so good and had so much energy. I could run and play.
Now I have 2 daughters as well. One is 2yrs and the other is fixing to be 15mo's. I want to not hurt and be tired anymore. I want to be able to do things with them. I started gaining weight when my son was 2yrs old. I wasn't able to go out in the yard and play soccer with him or run around. I've always hurt too bad and didn't have much energy. I don't wamt that for my daughters too.
I just had my 38th birthday this month. I know now that this is the last birthday that I will be this big and that makes me hopeful.
BTW, I've had surgeries before but none of this magnitude. I'm kinda anxious.... ok, scared. I know my surgeon is very good and has an outstanding reputation... I guess what I'm feeling is probably normal. I just needed to talk...thanks for listening.
