Terese_
4 days until surgery
Jun 05, 2010
I've been on the liquid diet for 4 days now,with the exception of a cheese sandwich before work yesterday. It turned out to be a wise choice because it was so busy at work that I didn't get a lunch or a break for 9 hours. I'm anxious about having general anesthesia. I think "ignorance is bliss" is an accurate statement. If I didn't know every little thing that can go wrong I would just be excited and grateful for this chance to get healthy.
My goals are to get down to 140 pounds, maybe even a size 10. Pounds aside, my goal is to not die prematurely of a heart attack or diabetes or stroke. I want my blood pressure to come down to normal, and my blood sugars too. I really want to be able to live an active life again, and do all the fun things that my boys want to do now. I want to fit into an airplane seat, play at a water park all day, be able to tolerate heat again. I want to have energy again. I want to be able to work full time again. I want to be able to slide down the slides with my boys. Most importantly, I want my boys to have their mother. I want to live to see my grandchildren. I don't want my husband to bury me and suffer that grief.
I was undecided about how much time to take off from work. My surgeon suggested at least 2 weeks in order to have an opportunity to begin exercising before returning to work, as well as having a chance to get through the liquid phase. She is awesome. I've known Dr.McBride a long time. I'm leaning toward a full 4 weeks, especially after my last shift. If I go back on "restricted duty" it will just make my co-workers annoyed and exhaust me. It's too busy for someone to do all my lifting/turning/travelling. And lunch breaks? fo-gedda-about-it.
I know people are going to think I took the easy way out. None of them have a clue how much work this will be. Honestly, I did not realize the work involved until I went to that informational seminar in February.
I was just looking at options. I even lost 23 pounds on my own at Metabolic Research Center. I was already starting to sabotage myself, however. Who cooks and freezes 4 dozen cookies a week ahead of time? Like I wasn't going to eat some? Ended up eating all of them before my mom's bday party and had to make another batch. Idiot.
So here I go. Wish I had the guts to go all the way and do the bypass, but just too many risks. If I was not a mom, I think I would have gone that route. I just pray, REALLY PRAY, that a year from now I can look back and say I did the right thing, and be even more joyful in my life and the lives of those around me.
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My goals are to get down to 140 pounds, maybe even a size 10. Pounds aside, my goal is to not die prematurely of a heart attack or diabetes or stroke. I want my blood pressure to come down to normal, and my blood sugars too. I really want to be able to live an active life again, and do all the fun things that my boys want to do now. I want to fit into an airplane seat, play at a water park all day, be able to tolerate heat again. I want to have energy again. I want to be able to work full time again. I want to be able to slide down the slides with my boys. Most importantly, I want my boys to have their mother. I want to live to see my grandchildren. I don't want my husband to bury me and suffer that grief.
I was undecided about how much time to take off from work. My surgeon suggested at least 2 weeks in order to have an opportunity to begin exercising before returning to work, as well as having a chance to get through the liquid phase. She is awesome. I've known Dr.McBride a long time. I'm leaning toward a full 4 weeks, especially after my last shift. If I go back on "restricted duty" it will just make my co-workers annoyed and exhaust me. It's too busy for someone to do all my lifting/turning/travelling. And lunch breaks? fo-gedda-about-it.
I know people are going to think I took the easy way out. None of them have a clue how much work this will be. Honestly, I did not realize the work involved until I went to that informational seminar in February.
I was just looking at options. I even lost 23 pounds on my own at Metabolic Research Center. I was already starting to sabotage myself, however. Who cooks and freezes 4 dozen cookies a week ahead of time? Like I wasn't going to eat some? Ended up eating all of them before my mom's bday party and had to make another batch. Idiot.
So here I go. Wish I had the guts to go all the way and do the bypass, but just too many risks. If I was not a mom, I think I would have gone that route. I just pray, REALLY PRAY, that a year from now I can look back and say I did the right thing, and be even more joyful in my life and the lives of those around me.