2015 Surviving Weight Gain 4

Mar 13, 2015

Good Morning,

I know it’s been forever since I blogged. All my followers must be looking for me J I hate when I feel abandoned. I had met some really wonderful people on here and they have seemed to just disappear. It makes me sad because I am constantly wondering where they are and how they are doing.

So the whole back on track went down the tubes and I am starting again. Back to basics kids! I’m drinking my G2 right now and staring at the “before” picture that I keep by my desk, which is supposed to keep me on track; supposed being the magic word.

I was finally getting into the swing of things; going to the gym, planning meals, cutting down carbs. I was so proud of myself and then life kicked me in the gut. Both of my grandfathers passed with in a week of each other. Just when I was getting over that, my 18 year old cousin committed suicide. It was so awful and holding my kids together was the worst of it. So sleep eating came back with a vengeance.

I felt like things were beginning to calm down and then I got my Audit paperwork for work. I hate the Audit. I knew it was coming as it happens every two years and its prescheduled but it’s still stressful. I am supposed to be in California right now but my flights got all messed up and I cancelled, which is good, because my kids were an emotional mess.

For the first time in years, I was scared my clothes wouldn’t fit. I didn’t want to be seen in a bathing suit. I refuse to step on the scale. It’s time to make a change, I know, you’ve heard it before but if I don’t say it out loud then it’s never happened, it’s never been acknowledged.

I’m going to re-read my blog. I’m going to remember why I did this. The weather is getting better, I’m going to walk. I’m going to figure out a gym schedule and I am going to stick with it. I’m going to start going to family functions. I’m going to revamp. I’m going to reset. I’m going to do this!

XXX

Bobbie

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