And I felt a little headachy off and on today.. and I’m trying to cut down on the ibuprofen because I just about live on that stuff, and I won’t be allowed it after surgery, but I hope my headaches and my backache goes away along with my weight ;)
I’ve read and listen/watched so many blogs about WLS and I’m loving hearing everyone’s stories before and after but one thing I’ve really noticed out of everyone’s blogs is no one talks about how freaken scared they are before the surgery? Or how they were dragging kicking and screaming into surgery.. now don’t get me wrong I really really want this surgery but I’m scared freaken chit less!!! What if it all goes horribly wrong and I die and leave 3 kids alone with their father!! Omg that would be the worst, I lay awake at night thinking about this.. does it keep anyone else awake? I’ve written letters to my boys L which was so hard.. and I wonder if I’m being totally selfish doing this to myself and them?! However if I don’t do something I guess I will be dead soon enough because my weight is going to kill me.. My kids are my whole life I can’t wait till we can run and play, and ride bikes and go hiking together again. Just simply things like walking down to the store are impossible for me, both mentally and physically.
Well I went and had my blood tests a few days ago but they seemed to have stuffed it up somehow.. in fact I think it was my GP that wrong the tests down wrong when she re-ordered them.. On the original letter from the surgeon said I needed to fast which I did and I’d need to be at the lab for 2 hours while they did a glucose tolerance test, which I did not.. I turned up and the lab lady took me straight away and I said, oh I need to be here two hours right? And she looked over my form and said nope just these and you are free to go.. I couldn’t very well say I had the tests reordered so I didn’t have to pay hehe so I just smiled sweetly and left, all the time thinking HELL now what do I do. Anyway tomorrow I have my appointment with the nurse, I’m not sure what will be done then but I guess I’ll find out…