Dear Toni, Your post of yesterday touched me very much. I am a therapist and it sounds to me as if you are either episodically, or I suspect, clinically depressed. Have you ever taken anti-depressants? If you are, you need to have your dosage adjusted. If not, get thee to a doctor. Your pouch can be "re-adjusted". Read the "Pouch Rules for Dummies" and it can tell you how. Please let us know how you are doing.