November 22, 2009 Total failure with the lapband!

Nov 20, 2009

It has been awhile since I have posted to my profile, but I don't have any good news to report about any weight loss.  That's because I have had no more weight loss....instead it's going the other way.  Since I had the .2 cc's removed from my band back in September, I have gradually been gaining weight.  Why is it that it takes me months and months to lose 10 lbs, but only a few weeks to gain it???  I just don't understand this weight gain/loss concept.  Obviously, because I have gained 10 lbs just since the minute unfill in September.  I can't say that I am back to eating like I did pre-band, but I'm not measuring and counting calories, protein, or carbohydrates, either.  My former eating pattern has changed drastically since my surgery, but to no avail.  I am totally disgusted with myself for going through this surgery over a  year and a half ago, and not being able to lose any weight.....but gaining is no damn problem.

It is not meant for me to be any smaller than I already am without actually starving myself at EVERY meal, and I'm not doing that.  I have battled my weight for the last 40 years and I am tired of trying.  I QUIT!  I just want to cry sometimes when I step on the scales.  It's just not fair!  I will continue to take my many, many medications for my health problems, keep my appointed doctor visits, and leave it at that.  I can't make the many miles of trips to my surgeon and the bariatric staff at the Cleveland Clinic every time I need help.  

So to make my story short....THE LAPBAND DOES NOT WORK FOR EVERYONE...I AM LIVING PROOF OF THAT!

Susie  

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