Valerie C.
9 days post op
Jun 17, 2009
I'm home. I was in the hospital a day longer than expected. I'm so tired. I had no idea how bad this was going to be. i was scared and worried, and things are NEVER as bad as you expect they'll be right? This was worseI'm so lonely. I don't get to sleep with my gf in the bed. I can't really hug her, or even sit next to her on the couch. I'm in a chair that has arms and a foot stool. She's here helping me. She's been so helpful, but she is more my caretaker than my partner right now. We only talk about how I'm feeling, and that I need to drink more (it's a constant battle to drink for me) we don't talk. The stress of how hard a time my surgery went started her smoking again. She goes outside to smoke and i sit in the house alone while she does something that was such a struggle to stop.
I'm dehydrated. i had upset stomach for 2 days and anything I took in went right out the other end. I had labwork done and may need to go in and get IV fluids if i don't get more liquid in me.
I have a headache, feel lightheaded and get so exhausted just walking around the house for 2 minutes.
I can't even hold my dog.
I question why I did this.
I've lost 17lbs. I gained 3 in the hospital, but have lost over 17 since being home. 5 days. 17lbs. I guess that's why I did it.
right now it's not worth it. I feel horrible. I was prepared for pain but I'm suprised at the sadness i feel, the loneliness and te depression.
i just feel so down.
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About Me
Portland, OR
Location
58.3
BMI
Surgery
06/08/2009
Surgery Date
Feb 01, 2009
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