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Super excited. Had my one month check in yesterday and I'm down six pounds! Despite being out of the country last week and having no idea how many calories I was eating. I just tried to focus on protein and eating smaller portions than I usually would. This makes me feel better, that it IS possible to lose weight, that whatever the depo did to my body is most likely fixed by now. 

I also had the behavioral evaluation, passed that with flying colors. I realized how blessed I was to have such a supportive family. I had a very happy childhood and other than my divorce which precipitated my huge weight gain, my life in general has been good. And, with DH, amazing. I'm feeling more confident that I CAN DO THIS.

This is my first blog post about the bariatric surgery that DH and I hope to have before the end of the year. I haven't written about it yet on my regular blog because I'm not quite ready. As a food blogger I feel like this is giving up. But I know that this just a tool, it's not the easy way out. I have been spending lots of time reading books and forums so I have a pretty good idea what to expect.

My biggest fear about getting sleeved is, What if it doesn't work? In my head I know that is silly. Of COURSE I will lose weight. But part of me wonders, what if? I have been skinny most of my life, until about 8 years ago when I went on depo provera and started going out to eat with my now husband. In less than a year I gained 100 pounds and nothing I did made any bit of difference. I worked with a nutritionist and she blamed it on the depo. I put the scale away, counted calories, ate clean, exercised, but it made no difference. I sort of gave up. Over the past few years I have gained and lost about 30 pounds a few times, always very slow. I feel like this is my last chance and I'm going to do everything possible to make this a success. 

I would love to hear from anyone who had similar fears, and how they overcame them.