A little too much R&R

Feb 18, 2010

 I know I am being ridiculous. I keep wanting to weigh myself. I wasn't sure if I was on track with the rate of weight loss I am having. I have been overweight for close to 15 years, I had surgery 15 days ago, and I really want to be down 100 pounds. TODAY. What is my problem???  I bought a new digital scale that shows your weight loss to .2 pounds. It doesn't sit on my tile floors correctly, so each time I weigh I have to pull it out away from the wall about 6-9 inches and then turn it sideways, so that it is stable and will read correctly. And I am weighing several times each day. This is ridiculous, and has to stop.
I brought the scale back to Walmart, and I am trying not to buy another one, at least for a week or two.
My clothes are so much looser now, but I want to buy new clothes, skinny clothes, and this is taking soooo long. Yes I am WHINING!!! I want to look sexy, I want to go to the gym and work out. I want to believe that I really am going to lose weight. Somehow I just know that I'm not. Then I think, of course you are, ugh, I am so confused.
It feels so good to see the anticipation and desire in my husbands eyes. To see the excitement of watching the weight come off, I know I need to enjoy this journey, each day that comes. But part of me wants it now!
I just had to vent! Everything is going great, I am healing well, but I get tired really easy. That is probably what is wrong with me today. I have taken the day off, to rest and recuperate! I have been going wide open for days, and I was simply exhausted. I think all this R&R is giving me too much time to think! Best wishes to everyone!

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