WilderGal73
Obesity runs in my family. Of course, being 5'1" I'm already vertically challenged. I have battled the "bulge" since I was a kid, living off Whoppers and Doritos. I found out at 23 that I had a thyroid problem, by then I had gained 60+ lbs in less than a year. Since then I've continued to gain, and weight loss efforts just aren't working. For years everyone told me I was healthy and my thyroid was fine, but I never believed them, I just couldn't lose the weight, even when I did try.
I feel lucky that I met my husband now before I gained this last 50lbs. At 250 I felt fat but could still wear my 3X clothes and look "ok". Quitting my job, not getting any exercise and eating out a lot has really taken a toll on me this past year or so.
I have made up my mind that the only solution is WLS. I have to admit defeat in the dieting department. I just don't have the willpower to stick to it.
I'm an avid photographer and nature/wildlife lover. I have wanted to get involved in Audubon birding trips and such, but hiking in this heat with my camera gear is nearly impossible for me now. I hate sweating so much, I hate being out of breath. I want to be able to fly, travel, do things outdoors, have a life, and not be scared of my weight and awkward circumstances. We have passes to some of the theme parks and I don't go because of the embarrassment of "squeezing" through the turnstyles. How silly is that?
I'm tired of being tired. Tired of buying bigger and bigger clothes and not liking what I see in the mirror. Tired of worrying about what this weight is doing to my body, my bones, my organs, my heart. Tired of being sore and aching all over, especially foot and back pain.
My problems are compounding, I have referrals to a podiatrist, a urologist, a cardiologist, an endocrinologist, an allergist, a pain specialist, the list goes on. My life now is consumed with doctor visits, tests and juggling medications. I'm 32 and living the life of an 80yr old.
My husband and I want to have a child if I can lose enough weight to safely do so. I fear this day may never come unless I have surgery. (This was written at the start of my journey). My insurance did not cover WLS and I was self-pay.