4 months

Jun 24, 2009

June 25, 2009
Well, today marks my 4 month point. I have lost quite alot of weight: 96.5 lbs in total from my highest weight of 270 lbs. I am now 173.5 lbs. I am really starting to feel like normal again. I thought it would never happen. I still have good days and bad. I think my main focus has been my hair loss.

My 36th birthday was last Saturday, June 20th. My mom took me to get my hair colored and cut. I left feeling so great about myself. I have never really been able to pull off a short cut that didn't make me look larger. People at work were amazed because I looked so good. Even I have to admit it and I am not used to saying good things about the way I look.

I am getting tired of keeping the surgery a secret like it was a bad thing for me to do. I just wanted to keep negative people away and all the horror stories. Those are the only stories people tell you. I want to be an inspiration to all the other overweight people in my life, friends and family. I hope people don't feel like I have lied to them. I never told them I didn't have surgery. When they asked me about my weight, they immediately asked "did you have surgery?" I never said yes or no, I was careful about that. I just said, " I am eating high protein/low carb." I hope they understand how I feel when they learn of the surgery and be compassionate toward me. I am going to do whatever makes me feel good and I feel like I need to be completely honest. I just hope people don't think of me as a lier. I have only told a handful of family/friends and have sworn them to secrecy.

Enough about that, I got a bike from my family for my birthday and it is really nice. I had a mountain bike before but you have to lean over to get to the handlebars. I have a bad back and need to be able to sit up. This bike is perfect for me. My kids and I have ridden but man is it hot right now. I love to do the Wii Fit. I will be glad when it stops calling me obese. I feel like a wild animal when it sayes it. LOL. Thats all for now.

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