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Dawn...... You have everything to be proud of..how ever you lost the weight. I hate to say this we all have eating disorders whether we like to admit it or not. I will never view food in the same way...I worry about EVERYTHING i put in my mouth and am constantly thinking "WEIGHT". I worry whether I eat enough or too much...food/weight is a constant thought. (I myself am sitting here thinking would not eating work for me?) Knowing full well it is so wrong to think that way..I am proud of you for coming forward but also want you to know none of us are perfect. Thanks for sharing and please know you are not alone..... ~~hugs and well wishes~~ Chris And yes we have missed you and your absence was noticed....

Hey Dawn. I DID realize that you were missing in action a little bit, but people do have lives outside of OH....so I figured you were just really busy. Congrats on the weight loss!! 103 lbs. is great. It's really good that you posted this because I'm sure that others are going through something similar. Just remember that we all chose this surgery to be more healthy, and not eating to see the pounds disappear faster is very unhealthy....but you already know this. Also, remember the weight WILL COME OFF. You've been doing great....going to the gym, eating all the right things...you've been doing wonderful! You may be doing yourself more harm than good even though you like results thus far. You could be causing your body irreversible damage without even knowing, and you could be setting yourself up for weight regain in the future. Blackouts are definitely not a good feeling, as I'm sure low blood sugars aren't either. That cute little girl of yours doesn't want you in the hospital, and I'm sure you don't wanna be there either. Were you thinking of seeing your doc or a therapist? We really love hearing from you on this board, and thank you for being so honest and upfront. We want to see you healthy. Get back to the basics and keep up the good work! You look great! April

Dawn - I had noticed that you were MIA from the board recently, but like April I thought you had gotten busy with life outside OH. Congratulations on two things, first your weight loss - 103 pounds gone is *fantastic*. Second on your ability to recognize what you were doing was unhealthy and for wanting to change it. ( I guess that's really three isn't it ) Anyway, glad to see you're back on the board and we're hear to support you any way we can. (((Hugs))) ~Anna

Dawn, First congratulatiions on the 103 that is awesome. But I am really worried about you sweetie. If you don't eat properly and get in enough protein everyday you will do a lot of harm to your body. And low blood sugar is nothing to play with, boy do I know about that. Please, you need to see someone about this and soon. Don't let it become a pattern that you can't get out of. You've come so far to fail now. I love you and don't want you to hurt yourself. Call me and let's talk. 847-310-1507 Sending many hugs, Ronna

Hang in there Dawn. Good going losing the 103 pounds. Make yourself eat a little more so you'll feel better. Karla

Dawn, Get professional help. You have recognized you have a problem and sound like you are ready to make a change. A healthy happy you is the goal and a therapist will help you meet that goal. Best money I ever spent. Teresa

Hey Congrats on the Century Club! Even though it was a little crooked path recently that led you to it, it is still a great thing to celebrate! I understand what you are going thru. I noticed you not posting and for me who like nevers posts.....I just have to say we noticed. I just said last night that I am sick of food. It's easier not to eat or eat the wrong things. I really think it's all about accountability. And you are brave and were right to bring it out here. Now just move forward as discouraging as it can be, because you can do it! Wendi

Hey Dawn I just wanted to send you a big virtual (((HUG))) and We have been through so much with this surgery, I know you can get through this. Like someone else suggested, try working with a nut. Love ya, Kay

HI Dawn, I haven't been on the board much b/c I am so busy with the kids. 103 pounds is great. BUT, I fear that you are getting yourself into some habits that are very bad. An eating disorder is an eating disorder, whether it is too much or not enough. Please, please, please take care of yourself. You had this surgery to become healthy. By becoming anorexic, you will not be healthy. I know you mentioned before about not having insurance and that seeing a therapist was cost prohibititive. This is your life, please find a MH clinic that works on a sliding scale or a pastor of another church. There are support groups too. Have you laid this down to the Lord? I am struggling just opposite of you. I am hungry all the time. Maybe each time I want to eat, I should pray. THis message comes to you with love and not flames. Please accept this in love! God Bless, Jen

Here is a big hug coming your way. Congratulations on the 103 lbs., that is fantastic. There are times that I don't feel like eating either, but I make myself think that is a matter of life or death. Not eating regular meals is what got me to be at 279lbs. I really messed my body up. I will keep you in my prayers and really try to eat, please? Myself, sometimes I wait to long between meals and I know that is also the wrong thing to do. Love and hugs coming to you, Rosemary