TOO MANY QUESTIONS!

I posted this on a different board, but wanted to know if any of you who are getting ready to face surgery have been feeling the same. This is a wonderful, crazy, mixed up time for me. The time is getting closer. Just 20 more days until my surgery. I have been a ball of mixed emotions. Sometimes I am so excited about starting my new life, and sometimes I am so damn scared. Recently I have been feeling a little depressed and very exhausted. I don't know if this is normal or not, but I guess it may be. I had a wonderful holiday full of love and light. I spent it with my family and friends, and my life's partner, Karen. I believe it was the best holidays of my life. I really have no reason to feel depressed. Maybe it is because of the losses this surgery represents. Not just the positive one (i.e. weight loss), but the scary ones. My life will be forever changed. Am I ready to deal with these changes? Other than physically, how will the weight loss change me? Will I be me? If not then who will I be? What if I don't succeed? Where will I find the protection (or illusion of) that my body provides me? How will I deal with unwanted attention? Will people still love me and feel safe with me? How will my partner react to my weight loss? Will it change my personality? So many questions! No wonder I can't sleep at night. Have any of you faced this? Am I just trippin'??? Rosa

Rosa, You are not trippin' , It is perfectly normal to go thru a variaty of emotions before any surgery, much less a life changing surgery like we all are facing!! Just try to relax, and breath, and focus on the future. It is a beautiful thing to behold. You will be able to do things that the weight has held you back from doing. So don't sweat the petty stuff and don't pet the sweaty stuff and you will do alright!! Patty *4 days to Nashville* **12 days till surgery**

Hi Patty, Thanks so much for your response and helping me feel like I am not loosing my mind. I will try to remember to breathe...sometimes I forget, and I will surely not pet the sweaty stuff! LOL!!! God bless you and keep you. I wish you the best for your surgery and will pray for you. Please let me know how it goes. Rosa

Hi Rosa, I am only four days away form surgery and I know what you are saying. I have such a mix of emotions also, and this board has helped me out so much with every ones words of encouragement.I think it is just like morning the loss of something our emotions just go crazy. But we will all do fine in the end. See you on the lossing side!!! Tara

Thanks Tara. Good to know I am not loosing it! I will keep you in my prayers and hope you have a successful surgery and quick recovery. Keep us informed. Big Hugs, Rosa

Hey Rosa Girl you are not trippin! Well if you are, you are not the only one I feel the exact say way you do now. I have only 8 days. One day I get so excited I'm bouncing off the walls then the next I'm crying like a Big baby! Hang in there! Kay

Only 8 days????? OMG girl that is wonderful. I will be praying for you and keeping my fingers (and eyes) crossed too. It's good to know I am not the only one that is an emotional ball. You hang in there too and make sure to keep us posted. BIG HUG, Rosa

Rosa, I love this site and it has helped me a lot. It has made me prepared for almost anything that willl come my way. That is both good and bad. I have been here so much that I had to stop coming so often as it too was starting to freak me out. We see so many different things that people experience that we feel it is inevitable that we should go through with at least some sort of issue. Well I am here to tell you that I have had three co-workers go through this in the last month. (We all started the process at the same time) and all three of them came out of the surgery with flying colors. None of them had any of the gas pain that I thought was a "sure thing". None of them have had to throw up yet (which I was thinking was a sure thing) and so the experience of the first month that I wanted to pass by quickly is now seeming totally do-able. I don't think that it is an easy thing or that everyone goes through so smoothly, but I do know now, that it is more common than those of us visiting this site everyday may think. So know that "It is, what it is" and that you are going to do it. There for a while I could not envision myself going through with it. I felt I would back out at the last minute thinking "I can do it on my own" but I know that I can't. I also know that many people have a much easier time of the first month than my first impression. I hope this helps you. 5 days until my New Life begins. Finally at peace, Kristie

Thanks so much Kristie for you comforting words. Sometimes I find myself focusing on the negative stories and not the thousands of positive ones. Guess it's just fear. I will be praying for you and hope everything goes well for you. Please let us know how you made out as soon as you can. Big hug, Rosa