Why am I not happy?

You know, I have wanted to have this surgery for years. My insurance would not cover it. My husband got a new job in July 05 and that was the first thing I checked for, to see if it was covered. Six months later I had it done. Now heres where it gets tricky..........I really thought loosing the weight would make me happy. Ok, so Im only down 53 pounds. But you know what? Im still not happy. I do get out more then I did before and my husband says that Im starting to turn back into my "old" self. I guess he means happy and fun. But he's only here 2 days a week. He doesnt see me sleeping all day and depressed. I dont want to do anything during the week I just want to cry and crawl in the bed. Im not sure what the problem is......I just needed to vent. Thanks everyone for being so great. This board really helps cause you all understand. Kristi

Sorry to hear you re so down. I prefer to sleep too but am at work all day so i end up usually crashing shortly after getting home each evening. No energy to do anything around the house. I am having some of those symptoms too in addition to routine nausea and occasional vomiting. My bloodwork showed yesterday I am quite low in potassium - which after looking on the web- found out many if not all the symptoms i am having are also symptoms of low potassium. I can't eat more than two ounces of anything or I will most likely need to vomit. I do not get nauseous when overfull- but my nose clogs and I have to belch all the time. Once i the clog and belch goes away instantly. Weird but true. My pouch must be pretty small. Best wishes on your road to recovery. It's a long road but we are all on it together. Hugs, karen

Thanks Karen. My potassium is low as well. Maybe thats why I have no energy. As for food, I have no problems eatting. I do have a problem getting in all my protein. I hope you feel better soon. Kristi

I too have been struggling with my moods. I havn't been real happy either. Some days I wonder what the heck I did this for. I can sure relate. Leeanne

Kristi, I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Have you thought of talking to the psych doctor you had to talk to before surgery? Maybe they can help you work through your issues. It also may be a hormonal imbalance. I've heard of people being so depressed after GB, and many of them believe it's a hormonal balance of some sort. I hope you eventually feel better. Always know that you can come to us. April

Im so glad to have this board. We are like one big happy family. It helps to have people to talk to about this. My family just wouldnt understand. Some think I took the easy way out, if only they knew how hard this truly is. I'll check into your suggestion and thanks again. Kristi

Kristi, I can't relate yet as to where you are, but even being so new out of surgery, I have moments that make me wonder why anyone would do this to themselves. I imagine I will always have those "moments" here and there. I do wish you much happiness though. Is there anything you can change about your current situation that might make you happier? Try taking a class or finding something you are interested in and make it a weekly venture. Do something just for you, after all, you deserve it Hope you feel better, Roni

Thanks Roni. I know what you mean about this surgery. I know that in the end it will have been a Godsend. But right now....I would not do it all over. I think alot of my problem is coming from the fact that my husband moved in July 05 for work/school. Since then I have been living like a singe parent and going thru this on my own. Maybe I should just move to where he is, but he only has 6 months left. I just feel like a failure. Im sure it will all get better for everyone of us. ((crosses fingers)) Thanks again, Kristi

Hey Kristi, We are so on the same page today. I am feeling the same way, As you can tell by my earlier post. Everyone says I look great and I'm getting back to the "old me". I dont feel like the "old me". Hang in there! Hopefully this will pass. Kay

Hello Cara. My husband got a new job in July 05 that required a move for about 14 months. I decided to stay here in our home and not disrupt the kids lives and try to have my surgery. Now I am totally regreting that and wishing we were all together. He hates being away as much as we hate him being gone. But for now, we will just have to make due. I think that this summer when school is out for my 9 year old we wil go stay with him. As for Paxil.........well its starting to look very appealing to me. Thanks, Kristi