1/3/2008...the first day of the rest of my life

I can't wait. I feel as though my life has been in limbo since I started persuing this surgery, and I am finally at the end of the journey and at the end of my life as "the fat girl" The nightmares have started increasing in occurence. I am having dreams where the surgery approval is revoked, i have the surgery and I am a failure, or I have the surgery and I am eternally sick. I recognize these as just my insecurities and fears. It is interesting that I actually got this date. this date has some significance for me in the past. on Januray 3rds past, I have made some major life altering decisions, and i guess this January 3rd will be no different!

Congrats and good luck. I am having surgery on the 3rd too! I can't wait to start my "new" life!