I go Monday for my 3 mth check up...down 44 lbs altogether but only 35lbs since surgery...I could definitely do better with my fluids!  Congrats to you!  Awesome!

Restless is the word I was looking for. Your hair looks great BTW. I am so restless these days that I almost can't stand myself. I don't work and I don't drive so most days are spent at home. That was fine a while back but now I'm going nuts. It seems like I have to be doing something constantly. My hands have to be busy and so does my mind. Watching TV alone isn't enough to keep me occupied. I have to be surfing the net, or reading or working on the bills at the same time. I have much more energy than I used to and I think this is a part of that. I need a hobby. Seriously.
Karen

I messed up the math in my first post so deleted that one and now the system won't save my posts - my apologies if there's a zillion copies of this post.

1255.7 + my 85 = 1340.7!

I'm down about 45 pounds since surgey + 40 lost before surgery for a total of about 85 pounds.  I've been frustrated that I was losing too slowly but I feel fantastic and my surgeon says i'm right on track.

Sweet
- I feel fantastic :)
- after years of struggling, I'm finally getting 80oz of water in every day, easily
- most of the nearly constant pain I experienced before surgery (knees, back, feet, hips) is gone
- blood pressure down to 112/60
- since I have to buy a new wardrobe, I'm having fun re-inventing myself.  Experimenting with looks and colors I wouldn't have worn before
- I've been very lucky with not having any significant food problems (can eat anything except dry meats...and really, why would one want to eat dry meat? :)

Bitter
- somehow when I heard "you won't be hungry" I assumed that it wouldn't feel like I was dieting but it still feels like being on a diet, what with all the mental energy that goes into choosing what to eat.  And the whole not being able to eat brownies thing...

- this is actually a good thing, but hard.  Weight loss is so tied to failure that I'm having a lot of those failure anxieties even though I'm not failing.  I realized the other day that every aspect of my life is successful except my ability to lose weight (in the past) yet I defined myself as a failure because of that - ignoring all the other successes. 

- haven't been able to learn how to eat slowly...still race through my meals no matter how hard I try not to