The waiting doesnt end.

Ok I have to vent and I hope you guys dont mind. Through this whole process I have been waiting. Waiting for appts,waiting for ins, waiting for my day. Now I have to wait for results. Ill tell you what started this. BATHING SUIT. We joined the YMCA today and I was excited. I thought I would wade in the water with my girls. (No swimming till next week). Well I went to buy a shirt to cover my suit(its not a pretty sight) Guess what size I had to get. A MANS 4X. That is disgusting. How did I let this get so bad. Now I feel terrible.I know it probably wont fit me long but that doesnt help me. I didnt even try on my bathing suit from last year. There is no hope. I feel so ashamed. I wish I could crawl in a whole until I was of "normal"size. So any way I am waiting to see some results. Waiting till I can shop on the plus sized womens side and the maybe on the regular womens side. Surgery came and went but it was always real. I knew I would do it once I put my mind to it. Now I cant even imagine myself "normal" size. Cant begin to imagine. Oh well. I am done. I love you guys. I can share my most secret feelings and not feel bad about it. Thanks for listening to me whine again. LaDonna -20lbs

Honey! In 12 days you have lost 20 lbs. It is happening! You are melting! Shrinking before our very eyes! It won't happen overnight, but when you look back it will seem like it did. You are on the losing road! Joy

LaDonna--YOU shouldn't have to wait long....as soon as you lose another 20 lbs you will feel a burst of energy and pride in what you are doing...it may take you longer than others who don't have quite as much to lose, but your changes will be so dramatic and so wonderful, you are going to get so tired of compliments!! Just you wait and see.

((((LaDonna)))) I know how you feel and before you know it you will be able to get into all those clothes you want to!! You just wait and see. It will fly by!! Bethany AKA Da Offishal Riddler and Bertha 11 Days into NewPouch and feeling great! -25 lbs!!!! Yayyyy A riddle a day will keep the Marchers pounds AWAY!

LaDonna, really! Please don't do this to yourself! You have lost *20* pounds in *11* short days!!! You should be proud -- you had surgery to help yourself improve your life, and going swimming with your girls is wonderful exercise (even if you only start out wading). Who cares that you had to buy a big shirt right now? In just a few weeks, you'll be able to wear it as a night shirt, girl! Now quit freakin' and come out from your hole -- chin up -- be proud!!! And here's some big ol' hugs for you... -Marcie

laDonna think of it this way....WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU LOST 11LBS IN SUCH A SHORT TIME???? THIS IS WONDERFUL PROGRESS, KEEP YOUR CHIN UP, AND keep the faith! everything will turn around soon for you hun! here is an angel to help you along your way heck here's 2 more God bless you! feel good your alive and you have thoes wonderful children that love the just MOMMa!!! ((((laDonna)))))