Pondering the Post-Op Blues

Oh I have the blues bad!!! I'm not a complainer so I wasnt going to post about it but since this post is up LOL. I have cried every day for about a week now. Yesterday I'm sitting in my bed feeling sorry for myself and literally thinking how sad I was that I was sitting in my bed crying because I couldnt have a cookie!! I mean how sorry is that. I'm upset because I cant eat like I want to and I cried to my hubby(as he stood there eating a chocolate chip cookie) I dont cook for my family my husband has been doing it and when I get what I can eat, I go up in my room so I dont have to watch them eat thier food. I'm really embarrased that I feel this way, I really am. I researched this so much and I knew about the depression and the plateaus and everything I just never thought that it would be a big deal for me. I have reached my first plateau too and to me I'm like if I'm barely eating 300 calories a day how can I not be losing, but I have also only walked twice since I got home from the hospital the weather has been so horrible here arrrggggghhhh Ok I'm done now!! ~Nicole

I can relate to so many of you. My emotions have been such a rollercoaster. Today it's the blues. That last few days I haven't been feeling very good, so I did not do my walking. Today was the first day since I have been home that I hadn't lost anything, and I got so bummed out. Can you believe it? I am down 20 pounds in 14 days, I yet I get so bummed out over not losing since yesterday. Before the surgery, I was so happy when I weighed myself and I hadn't gained anything, but now, I a getting worked up over literally nothing. I know this is precisely why so many people don't weigh themselves every day, but I just can't help it. Once I go back to work (in a month), I will start to only weigh myself once a week. I need the rollercoaster to get up that hill again, so I feel better about myself. Silly isn't it??