5 months out today.....the rantings of a insane chick!!

I am 5 months out today and have learned alot. First i am down 95 lbs, gone from a tight size 26/28 to a 16. My hubby did NOT notice the weight loss, so i let him go, and got a boyfriend, who notices EVERYTHING, even if i trim my hair. My boobs have gotten smaller, but with the miricle of push up bras, they look good. Figuring out what to eat is getting better. But i am the proudest that i have not had soda in 7 months (snaps for me, cuz i used to drink a 12 pack of MNT DEW a day) I don't touch bread, so as for Jared and the Subway diet, I am doing better, cuz i ain't gonna have that bun! I have also learned that this WLS was not just physical changes, it has been a roller coaster of emotinal changes too. I still look in the mirror and see a very large person before me, even though i know my clothes are smaller, and I am getting hit on alot in the bar, but i think no matter what i lose, i will always see this person in the mirror. Reading everyone's post has helped me alot, touched me, and encouraged me. With all of your help, knowing that i am not alone going throu this has helped me throu all of this at this point. Friends and family can tell you your doing great, that you look wonderful, but they can understand what this is like for us. They see the physical changes and not understand the emotional changes. That is why i glad that you are all hear to help with everything along the way. Thank you all so very much, and congrats on your weight loss!!!!

Tanya I understand 100%what you said about the mirror. I see the fat chick there still. I have only lost 75 pounds but there are bones where i never new there were bones. My hubby and friends all see it but to me i havent changed yet. I know that my big clothes that i had to get rid of were way to big so i can see that but to me im still the same. LaRhonda

I know where you are coming from. I am so afaid sometimes I am going to wake up and those 2 Double chins will be back! This board has really saved me because I have no support group where I live. Hearing from people like you lets me know I am not alone. Keep up the good work and keep posting! Fellow Marcher Rhen

Tanya i feel exactly the same way. I see bones where i never seen any before but to me i will always weight 455 pounds. I have loss 111 so far and i know i still have a long ways to go.

Tanya, thanks for the reminder that we are all in this together. Maureen