Depends on the day....

So,,, yes I am proud that I have lost over 150 lbs and that I feel amazing...today that is,,, then maybe later today I might feel like I dont look good enough.. or maybe that I have more, alot more to lose before I think I look 1/2 decent. It fustrates me,, I feel good most of the time and then,,, I think "UGH!! I am not ____________ (you fill in adjative) enough".. or I need to do more work, or I start thinking about pastic surgery. I hate that I do that. My boyfriend rolls his eyes and tells me that I am amazing and that I know I am amazing so why do I continue to beat myself up? I NEVER did this before WLS,, at least no where close to how I do now.. Does anyone else do this or is having hard time accepting compliements sometimes? I have mostly good days and then for no reason known to me I get down on myself! -KIM -153

Kim im the same way i feel down because i havent lost enough and dont exercise enough and dont drink enough and not enough food. and when someone says i look good i roll my eyes too. I jsut feel like the same ole fat girl. Im told it will get better though. and congrates on the great loss. LaRhonda

Congrats on the weight loss!!!! I think everybody has experience up's and down's. I go through the period of where I will say, "Why haven't I lost as much as so-n-so"...or why isn't it coming off fast enough, or gosh I didn't know I would be going through hair loss this bad". Then again, I will be so happy because I lost another dress size, or if somebody compliments me all the bad things I had thought are gone. What I find wierd is, I have some people that will hurt my feelings and say "You aren't going to lose anymore weight are you!!!" You look better fat!! I guess people are so use to seeing me big that don't know what to think. Im only 6 months post op. I've lost about 92 lbs. Needless to say I do have more compliments than I go negitive comments. It's normal to go through the thoughts we have. That is why it is important to get into a support group. Congrats again on the weight loss Rebecca

Rebecca , you are doing GREAT! I do understand though what you are feeling. I have my up and down days. I guess it is going to take time for us to adjust to being smaller. It seems like yesterday that I was just in the thinking process of having WLS now I'm 111lbs smaller an can wear size 8&10 pants.My brain hasn't caught up to the rest of me yet. Someone at work told me today that I shouldn't have lost as much as I have, they don't understand that I'm still over-weight on the BMI scale and the Dr. tells me that I have another 11lbs before goal. People say things that make theirselves feel better, they don't know how to accept us, but I guess , sometimes I have a hard time accepting the different me.I believe that someday we'll feel normal, but hopefully always on guard. Hope you only have sunny days ahead , Edie

Thanks for the post. It is a hard battle and I am a part of two seperate support groups that I love. But I am still just trying to keep positive.. and yes I agree in everyway that the GOOD out weighs (no pun intended) the BAD -KIM