Donuts and Despair

I've eaten several of them over the last many days...oh, the feelings of shame. I am going to turn this around RIGHT NOW. Thanks Ken, how is it that you always manage to know just when to step in, step up to the plate, and save me??? Living a full, vibrant, healthy, passionate life TASTES so much better than those donuts did...the most difficult thing for me is trying to make sense of why it is that I FEEL like I am right back there again, in that head, in that sensibility, of that fat, fat, so full of shame, so unhealthy, woman not too long ago. I went through a period where I really did start to feel differently, when I felt 'normal' - normal sized, normal acting, just normal. Today I feel like I haven't lost a pound. But I'm going to shake this off, deal with it, and get back to where I need to be, doing what I need to do. Thanks guys. Thanks Ken. Reenie

Hi Reenie! (((hugs))) hang in there it happens! Its just a matter of working it off at the gym. I know what you mean about old feelings popping up. It happens to me more often than not. I had a bad bad weekend. just felt like eating everything in site. i skipped 2 days of vitamins and i think that has a major part! i think my body craves and part of that is the vitamins its lacking. we all slip and goof its not letting those slips rule our lives. you are in a good spot right now maureen! at a great weight and getting healthier by the minute!!! pat yourself on the back because you deserve it! dont worry about those dumb ol' donuts... think healthy and get back into the groove. i am desperately trying! i havent swayed from exercise but eating is a different story. its hard. gettting the rest of my weight off is very distressing. i cant wait till i am at or even near goal so that i can relax a bit and just maintain... eating the bad foods wont stress me as much. its just a matter of not getting comfortable eating the wrong foods. i dont think that will happen though LOL i stress too much over eating those bad foods. how is the horse doing??? are the bitters that you bought working for her? Beth

Reenie, Did the same thing yesterday, WHile at Wal-Mart Boght 2 donut's ate them on the way home. Felt like crap afterwards, but don't dump on sugar (wish I did) Why do we do that? Who knows. I haven't done that in months, I use to eat a whole box, so I guess if we just eat 1 once in awhile that should be O.K. We are human & still like treats. We just no we can never go back to what got us to make this decision in the first place. Hang In There. We CAN & WILL DO THIS TOGETHER. Love ya Marilyn, the Bearlady

Hey you can't take it back, you can just choose to not do it again. This surgery did not cure all the ills of any of us. Rare is the one who doesn't make mistakes. You'll be fine, being honest with yourself is half of the battle. You can and will do this!!