Fear!!!!!

Ok i'm alittle bit nervous about this. No Im alot nervous about this...I always worry that I'm eating too much. But when I add everything up sometimes I'm alittle over sometimes I'm alittle under. And I kept losing so I figured it was all ok things were working. Well, i've also been playing with 1 to 2 pounds. over the weekends they come on and during the week they come off. Im not doing anything all that different on the weekends than what i'm doing during the week. I dont have a clue as to why they happen but they do. I've read others who post and it seems like they too go through this so I figured its par for the course. Normal. Wellllllllll this week inistead of 1 or 2 pounds its been a pound a day. Today I was up 4 pounds. It scares me casue its not goign down its going up. I've been watchign what I'm eating and keeping the calories right at 1200 to 1400. I was eating more than that and losing. Each day I weigh in and today I wanted to cry. I dont ever want to be fat again. I'm not skinny by any means. By the charts I've still got a BMI that says I'm over weight. Sure I"m wearing size 8 & 10 but that won't stay like that either if the pounds still keep coming. Its like a horror story. I feel like I've got the Stephen King reverse to his book "thinner" when before I felt like I was living the thinner part. I want to weigh in at 150ish. today i weighed in at 164. I feel like a failure. yes I know I'm worrying maybe even over worrying about something that I thnk if I read these right to everyone who's a few weeks before me. I'm checking the proteins thats good. I'm drinking the water thats all good. I'm watching the carbs thats all good too. I'm thinking about getting some of the protein shakes again and doing a all liquid thingy. Am I over reacting? I dont 'want to be fat anymore. I like that my legs don't swish together anymore. gee things were going so nice too. Even my hair is growing all back its thicker than ever and very very curly where before it was straight. am I ok?

Pam, I know what you are going thru. I am really having to exercise to just maintain...I guess the free ride is over. I am at 150-154 but the last few weeks I am staying on the high end. I had hoped for 145 as a goal. Starting to feel like everyone else who is thin and have to watch what they eat. I too am right on the border of "normal/overweight" I have PS coming up in August..that should help drop a few pounds. Good luck and know you are not alone. donna

Hi Pam. I wish I could wave a magic wand and take your worries away. The reality is that now the real hard work begins. Keeping the weight off and maintaining health has become for us every bit as difficult as it is for any other normal sized person. Let that sink in, sweetie. You are a normal sized person. And just like anyone else on the planet, in order to maintain a normal size and optimal health, you MUST work at it, every day, hard, for the rest of your life. it sounds as if you are keeping good tabs on your eating and H2O, but what about exercise??? I promise you, that is the critical key to success for all of us now. You MUST move your body at least 1/2 hour a day, 6 days a week, to get it to a specific aerobic level in order to maintain your weight loss, let alone continue to lose. I think it was Mike who said quite a while ago that we need to stop relying on our old methods of weight loss -- and our old expectations of being able to drop 5 lbs. overnight because we were so heavy before. We're not heavy anymore, so it's much, much more difficult to lose. Listen, if you do anything else different today, make it about working out. Make a commitment to a strong workout today, tomorrow and Sunday -- while doing everything else that you're doing -- and see what the scale says on Monday a.m. Good luck, my friend. You're fine. Stop worrying and start exercising! It feels FANTASTIC! Love, Reenie

Hi There, I have to agree with Reenie, We will not keep this weight loss off, unless we exercise. We all thought it would just keep coming off without any problems. Will guess what!! that honeymoon period is OVER & the only way we will make this work now is to eat healthy stay positive & keep moving the body. As soon as I stop doing any exercising I gain 4 to 5 lbs. I no exactly what you are going through right now. It's very upsetting as it was so easy up till now to lose that weight. Now we are right back where we started from as fighting everyday. The Big difference is our heads have changed some what from what they use to be, we just have to keep them from going back to the old ways. I thought i was getting enough protein & vitamins in my diet & was surprised to find out that when i added the shakes back into the equasion I started losing weight again. I also added more b-12, As I don't think we ever have enough after WLS. It has really made a differnece in the way I feel. You might try a B-Complex vitamin, it also helps with the depression we sometimes deal with. Hang in There! & please no that we are all in teh fight together & Don't give up the fight. We WILL WIN. Marilyn, the Bearlady

Hey Pam......You are not alone. I think that my biggest fear at this stage is that I'm going to do what I did after every other weight loss.....that is put it all back on!! The difference now, is that we always have this tool to help us get back on track. We also have this wonderful "Marcher Family" here for support. I would like to reinforce what Reenie said....EXERCISE IS CRITICAL!!!! You cannot say that you don't have the time....You always have the time when your life depends on it!!! Even if You're having a busy day, there are ways to exercise. Make a few extra trips up and down stairs instead of saving it for one trip. Park at the back of the lot and walk to the building. Don't go to the drive up window at the bank...get out and walk inside. There are a million ways to keep your body moving without formal exercise and while formal exercise is the best, I firmly believe that these small lifesyle changes are a major help. As Reenie said, you're a normal sized person now, you must work like a normal person to keep your weight under control. Hang in there.....you're not alone....we'll all get through this together. Mike