Thinking Aloud

Happy weekend - almost. I've been thinking about our Board a lot these past two days. Thinking about you. Thinking about why we're here, what we need from each other - what we're maybe not getting anymore... some of us our deep thinkers, some not; some of us depend on this Board a lot more than others; some of us are out there living our lives and just pop in occassionally - some rarely - but pop in nonetheless and that's always so lovely to hear from a past voice, see a friendly face - we're changing here, evolving, ebbing and flowing like the tide that keeps coming to shore in search of something but heads back out to whatever, wherever with not much to show for the journey. Our posts seem to get much more traffic (lurkers) than responses any more. And we seem pretty reduced to a few regulars - aw, maybe this is as it should be. Who knows? The question I keep coming back to as I've been thinking about our Board these past two days is why are we here, and what do we need from each other? I need your friendship and support. I need you to help me keep my weight off. I need your acceptance of me, warts and all.  This all feels so different from 2 years ago, let alone 3, 4, 5 years ago. So I suppose if it feels different, it IS different. We're different. I dunno - I just wanted you to know I've been thinking about you - a lot - these past two days. Have a great weekend, friends. Maureen

Hey Reenie looks like its just you and me typing away this week! i'm sure that they will be along soon.
I seem to go in spurts. of course over the past few months i was without a computer that put a big crimp on my messaging!
I'm feeling so much better healthwise right now. i've kept my weight even while having to add all the carbs at the same for 3 months. at first i had put on extra weight but i lost that so i' mholding at 176. thats been my weight now for a year or more. maybe my body is sayig as much as you want to be that lowest 157 your not goign to be. i don't know. it is just a number. the 157 was really only for a week. i held at 163/165 for a couple of years then sprouted up to the 176 alittle over a year ago when my curves closed in town and then started dating the guy. you know all those out to dinner dates. the dietician says if i stick to the diet she's put me on and get back to excersizing that i should lose alittle.
right now i' mthrilled to be feeling like my old self for longer periods. that feels good.
take care have a great weekend

Maureen, I come to this board because I know that you all know what I'm going through. People that have never had a weight problem don't have a clue what we go through, they think we just like to be fat!!  I have fought this weight problem all my life and it hurts when other people think it's funny.  You all are my lifeline. I come here because you are part of my family and I love y'all!!  Have a good wekend!  Judy

Hi everyone!!!...sorry Ive been missing in action, been fighting a cold and today did some Xmas shopping and writing a final paper for daughter and me for that arobics class weve been taking, it finally ends this coming week. I hate writitng papers havent done it in about 30 years lol ....I hope all of us stick around on this board cause I know I need it...its helps keep me on track and focused more on my weight, I think if I didnt check in ide balloon right up to were I DONT WANT TO BE EVER AGAIN.....even though I only know you all through the internt I do consider you all to be my friends. I seem to talk to you all more then anyone really. I live pretty much in seclusion were I live at now and really this is my release...all my live friends live hours away and I dont really see them much at all. And you know what...this is very hard for me to admit...honestly...not one of my real live friends to this day knows Ive had WLS...none....its like Im almost afraid to admit it, cause Ive always been the one of us that could do anything in life, be it easy or hard Ive always pulled through, but unfortuantly not the battle of keeping the damn weight off.  I was always the skinny one growing up, who was active,, even after kids when I gained weight I still was into something being my karate or what, it was always something so guess they figure its all do to my working out.Yeah ive lost it numerous times before WLS but damn if it didnt come back. So what Im am saying in my rambling mode you all are really the only ones I can be honest with and share with without feeling judged and I need that in my life. To make along story short 1 yrs 5 yrs I dont care how long...lets remain friends we need each other and I do appreciate it more then you all know.

Now for my bragging ...I got my Xmas present ......Its NIIIIIIIIIIICE....and real SHINNNNNNY! and what makes it so much nicer is it was TOTALLY unexpected....5 guesses to what it is.....hint doesnt have wheels lol 

DID HE GO TO JAREDS????   I hate those commercials. They are so cheesy. But did he get you sparkly diamonds? From who??? i got a sparkly last year. (that reminds me of the crow from the secret of nihm.) dont know if anyone remembers that movie.. anyway... i got a diamond heart pendant. It was so pretty and like you said...totally unexpected!!!  oh and i hear ya about the friends thing. Except I just dont have that many friends i talk to anymore. Just one but i never get a chance to see her. and one other friend that i see rarely. so i totally hear you!

JAREDS  I Had to crack up when I read that...good one!!! Not jareds but a different jewerly store and OLD MY GO****S MAMMOTH Im TALKING MAMMOTH....my husband got me a new Diamond wedding ring... we went in he say look around what do you like I said they all are nice...I was looking at a resonable one...he said what about that one, I said ahh did you see the price tag on it? He goes try it on... and oh my my my its gorgeous...hes says you like it ..its yours, whatever makes you happy..I about cried. Its is sooooooo nice. Its getting sized and I should have it by the 20th when I get it Ill take a picture to show you all....youll see what Im talking about its unreal. So my Christmas is set for about 20 yrs now lol...but Im sooooo happy! 

Hiya, yeah lots of lurkers. Thats ok. Maybe they get what they need and move on. Hopefully it helps them. Thats what I'm hoping for. I was doing good this past week! Not any bread, some pasta but very very minimal and little to no sugar at all. I was starting to feel really good! :) :) I also lost 4 pouns. SO I'm getting down again. Thank the Lord for that. BUT yesterday i had some munchkins. Which will mess up my hunger. I see what I did, how it makes me feel and will NOT be doing that again. at least not this week!!!  Ack...in pain so making this short. pulled muscles in my neck. Fun stuff. love everyone and will always be here to give and get support.
 

4 POUNDS!!!! WOOHOO ELIZABETH!!!!!good job!

Thanks Kim! 

Now if I can just keep it going down!  I did good today. Well... probalby should've eaten more but im in alot of pain and my tummy is just upset. I had my coffee (decaf) for breakfast and some chicken florentine soup. Which is basically just chicken noodle soup. lol... so there was a little pasta in there, but thats ok. Thats the only pasta that i'm gonna allow myself. Its the elbow kind and not alot.   I got some medicine from the doc. Don't know what it is...dummy me forgot to ask. But its sitting at the pharmacy when i get out of here which is soon THANK GOODNESS! gonna try to be extra good tonight for dinner with luck I'll be ok. 

Dang hope your not getting what I had...I felt rough for about 2 weeks...just getting better now...hope you feel better soon....take care of yourself and your doing GREAT!