Hi Kat Are you still relocating? How are the preparations going if you are?

hi boo i'm here but i'm a bit closer to the abyss! Last night i hit and killed a deer, do you know they cry both in fear and in death.......i'm not sure but i think i could smell it's fear, either that or it was my own! Andi

I agree. I have been 'sad' lately, just my life getting the better of me. but I am keeping my eye on the goal. to maintain my success. it is not that hard, but I find that I am still solving my problems with nibbles of food. fortunately, I have not stretched my pouch, but WHAT I put in there is not a good choice. ;)

I am more exhausted lately, but think that it is attributed to all the Halloween candy, lack of vitamins, and not enough protein. I have done great on maintaining the weight loss, but as for nutrition. I totally suck

I have overused my body. I have been a bit of an adventurer in my life, I tend to think that I can do anything until proven otherwise. I was one of the first women in Canada to work as a autobody technician (body man). I was very strong and was not afraid to lift and carry anything. As a result I really wrecked my knees and back (hours spent welding, kneeling on cold cement, then lifting 150lbs piece of sheet steel). I lived in a teepee for four months and a solar powered cabin for two years and hauled every drop of water that I used. I became sick and gained 100lbs in about a year and that made my knees go crazy (they were already going, but the extra weight did not help) Now I am told that my knees are shot because of my weight. I am not sure how people who are skinny and have arthritis are treated, but I am sure tired of hearing the arthritis is because of my weight. My weight is because of the arthritis now. I have a hell of a time walking more than a block and if I do, I sure pay for it for several days of pain. I am told that my knees are shot, and that they will just get worse and worse and they will not replace them until I turn 60. I am going to be 51 in December and I am not sure that I can wait until then. I am told that they want to wait until 60 because they only last 15-20 years and some say that you can get one reline but most say that once they have replaced the knees, that is it. I told them that I would gladly have my lower legs amputated after 20 years because I just can't take the pain now. Knee replacement is covered in Canada as long as I have someone who will do it. My GP thinks that she has found someone who will do it earlier and I have to go to Vancouver to see him. (A ferry ride away, I live on an island) I would like to go into private practice, I would love to open a healing centre for women and children. My dream is to have a place that has different things like chinese medicine, meditation, art and play therapy, animals... Whether I can do that before I die, I don't know. I will probably work for the government for a while. Long story Holly