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Elaine,
I hear you on the nighttime grazing.  It is tough here too and I don't have a 4-yr. old who needs to eat for my reasons.  However, I have less and less trouble as time goes by throwing away food because of the cost.  Today I had a NSV in the car eating a chocolate sf 'cupcake' on the way home from work.  After eating half of it I was able to talk myself into throwing the rest away.  However, there was a lot of traffic and I thought it might not be a good idea to toss it out the window.   So I grabbed a tissue and mashed it up in it.  Tada...inedible cupcake!  

You must have lots of tiny containers for leftovers left from your early post-op days, right?  Designate them for the kiddo's leftovers and maybe you can just get him to eat them the next night instead of having to waste them.  Just an idea...  Good luck with it, I'm rooting for you.

Busy day today, on-the-go eats but I've been good and haven't bought any more store-bought protein bars so at least there is a couple-hundred calorie savings considering I was eating two or three of them a day in the last few months. 

--ff lactaid latte
--2 protein pumpkin muffins
--1/2 choc. sf 'cupcake'
--1/2 cup eggbeaters, salsa, 1 cup sf apple/tortilla rollup (ok, that was bad), squirt of low fat redi whip
--1 pkg tofu shirataki noodles, sf teriyaki sauce, 1/2 chicken sausage, celery
lots of tea, coffee w/creamer
--1 sf ice cream bar

Not the best day, but not bad for a wacko busy day. 

Thanksgiving eating plans?  A few ounces of turkey w/sf cranberry, some roasted veggies and then a break to get pouchie ready for the SF DESSERT FEST!!!  WITH COFFEE!  Yup, total rule-breaking but bwhaa,haaaa,haaa!!!!

Me gonna eat: sugar free pumpkin pie, sugar free cheesecake, sugar free orange-cheesecake-mousse pie.  Little pieces but they're going in!  

Oh Amy, my heart is breaking for you and your family.   This special little one you didn't get to keep will always be part of your family, please don't feel guilty.  Do whatever you need to do to get through this time and know that you are in my prayers too.  Take as good care of yourself as you are able to and let others help when they offer, you need extra pampering and cacooning right now. 

Hugs for you....

I am so very sorry Amy.  I know you heart must be broken right now.  *biggest hugs to you and your family*.  Hang in there sweetie.  I am praying for you.

Im right there with u but its the bf that eats all nite and he makes me hungry lol......but its all in our heads i guess....but lately i look at it and it adds lbs so irratating lol Marsha