Mel- GOOD for you....everything good is worth fighting for.....you are such a dear heart and have been such an inspiration for everyone....you deserve to have this go your way!

FRIENDS!

Not sure if i told you guys this in my confession Monday- but i have started drinking with my meals- it started on vacation last year and i have not been able to shake it. Subsequently, i am able to eat a whole lot more than i need to or should. Beginning this past Monday I have been following the rules of no drinking with meals- and waiting 1 or more hours after to resume drinking. Thank you all for being my friends, I really do consider you all friends of mine- you are the only people I KNOW who know what i go through, who know what i am feeling and know how to make me feel better and that is priceless to me.

OK so on to the nitty gritty.

Highest Weight: 295
Lowest Weight: 181
Friday's Weight: 206
Today's Weight: 204

So do i call that 91 pounds lost, 2 pounds lost or 23 pounds gained ?

OK WELL MY ANSWER TO THE QUESTION OF THE WEEK IS.......................(and always will be)

THE CARBS!!!!!!!!  I HAVE REALIZED I AM A CARB JUNKIE.  ONE THING THAT I AM GOING TO TRY TO CHANGE THIS WEEK IS TO DRINK MORE WATER.  I KNOW I DON'T GET ENOUGH OF THAT IN.  AND YES I NEED TO MOVE AGAIN TOO BUT LIKE MELISSA SAID, "BABY STEPS".

HW:  340
SW:  330
LW:  186
CW:  185  (YEAH  DOWN ONE)

BLESSING
MINI ME

 

 

This is just a rambling post....hope u do not mind

I just found out today that my short term disability company that is contracted by my job is going to pay for my entire leave of absense with my plastics!!!   They have an exclusion for "cosmetic surgery" so I really felt like I had no chance in heck of ever getting it approved.  However, I fought hard and with the words "reconstruction" used in place of plastic surgery and MUCH MUCH documentation from my doctor and phone calls from myself, I found out this morning they are extending it through my entire leave.. wow. 

It all started with gastric bypass.. many hopps with my insurance company.  Even tho i was 328 lbs, 5'4" and had diabetes, hypertension, high cholesterol, foot pain, back pain, stress incontinence etc... I had to fight.. fight hard.  They (the insurance company) put me through hell going through so many tests and also made me see specialists to get clearance.  See they wanted me to back down.  There were a couple times I wanted to, I would cry myself sick over it.  My husband who had RNY 8 years ago knew how hard many of his friends had to fight (he did not have to luckily) and said "do not give up.. keep going forth. They want you to give up. Are you a quitter? I know my wife better than that.. "  So I kept fighting and after 10 mos was finally approved. It was a joyous day getting that call, I will never forget it.  

Fast forward to plastics... 190 lbs down and lots of skin left over.. I had started the documentation process in september, they requested a lot of specific things.. pictures, montly doc visits, prescriptions being filled and showing that the rash was "refractory" to treatment - meaning not getting better or responding.  I was initially denied b/c I didn't have enough t's crossed and I's dotted so I had to basically start over somewhat.   Fight, fight, fight....I kept going forth.  I finally got approval for panni removal and went ahead and paid 10.6 k out of pocket for LBL... after all the figthing I still couldn't get a tummy tuck covered which I knew i wouldn't b/c I did not have a hernia.  It amazes me how easy ppl can get a full tummy tuck covered (certain plans especially) and they don't fight near as hard... makes me sick.  I am sorry I am venting here!

Then the disability thing that I posted above about... fight fight fight....

As much as it is a PAIN IN DA BUTT - I can genuinely say I have worked my arse off literally :P  FOR EVERYTHING - it makes me apprecite it that much more and makes me realize how SILLY it would be to ever go back to obesity.  I mean really.. after all the blood, sweat and tears... it is crazy to think one would even fathum going back there... so I think that is why I never give up the fight with my addiction too, I have so much to show for how far I have come beyond weight loss.  I have to thank my father especially as he taught me u just never give up.. and of course my husband for also instilling that in me.  I have good role models that way .

So I just wanted to toot my horn a bit, hope u don't mind.  

Ok, now back to our regular scheduled program.   Thanks for listening.

Hi Gang!

So glad to see so many of you back here!!!  Group HUG !!!!

So SOO glad to know that all of you feel you can come back here when you need support or a friend who understands not only the struggles but the joys of RNY and its journey!  So glad to have this December family! You guys ROCK!  I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! 

So let's be accountable... even if the "truth hurts".  Post that weight, be accountable and lets get the scales moving again ladies! I know with eachother's help and assitance we all can be successful in this journey!  Don't let 10-30 lb gains get any higher... lets pull together and put that scale on a downward trend.  We can all do this TOGETHER!

Question of the week:  What are you struggling with as far as the postop rules are specifically?  What is ONE change you make this week to get back to basics.  Sometimes not changing everything at once is better.  Baby steps...

My answer: Not indulging at social situations.  Weddings, parties etc.. I tend to lose all control and it takes days for me to get it back together.  I always do go back to basics (thankfully) but it gets harder and harder.. its like putting an alchoholic at a bar and saying... don't drool over the liquor or ask for taste tests... are ya kidding me? I love food and stick the buffet in front me of me.. sigh I lose it.  I always feel gassy, queasy and have some low blood sugar attacks yet I never learn.  So I am going to start going back to where I make my OWN indulgent "safe" desserts to bring or bring my own meal if the family is making something I can't have.  Weddings well what do u do? I will just have to learn not to indulge in crap foods, luckily those don't happen often. LOL.

Ok on to the stats...

HW: 328
SW: 280
CW: 134
LW: 136

So please take my hand and join in ladies... love you all! Make a committment to move those bods somehow some way, even if its taking the stairs rather than the elevator or parking the car farther and walking to the store further.  YOU CAN DO THIS!