Gettin' scared

Shells...I recall the   telling me during the pre op thingy, not to be surprised if I cried before and after the surgery, I think it's a mourning process that we go thru since we know deeeep down inside we won't be able to have the same relationship with food as we did once.  Feelings that would begin to surface that we would use food to tamp down, now we know we can't do that as easily.  I actually never went thru that..LOL  As for me, I echo what Connie so profoundly said, I wasn't scared at all...funny, huh?  Hang tough, I swear to you that it will be fine.  If you have to do 2 weeks post op of clears, that was the toughest part for me.  Thought I'd lose my mind!    But, it's all so worth it, I promise you!  xo  Kim

Thank you Kim! Thankfully I don't have to do the two weeks of clears, just protein shakes and restricted calorie intake, which is tough enough! LOL You are totally right about mourning the loss of the best friend that food has always been, I have been thinking about that a lot!

*deep breath* It's all gonna be good! LOL


Shells

All of your fears are normal, but remember this is going to be the best gift you have given to yourself!!

Thanks Terri!


Shells

Kim I honestly do not remember leading up to having my surgery being all that scared because from the time I decided to having the surgery to getting on that operating table was 2 months to the day. I know crazy eh?

It all happened so quickly...a friend of mine had the bypass and although I did not know her prior to hers, I just knew that to me it sounded like a miracle.The night I made the decision to go forward with it, I had just received a Teacher of the Year award, was going to see Tom Jones, but on the way to the concert hunting her down and tell her to find me a doctor...it was full speed ahead! (and don't laugh about seeing TJ's....it was a campy thing to do!).

The day of my surgery, I paniced and thought to myself what the hell am I doing...I felt like my whole lfie flashed in front of me....okay all the food flashed in front of me and I thought no way is my life ever going to be the same again. I stood outside the OR holding tank and cried. Jeff tried to calm me, but it was my son James who was able to.

I turned around and marched myself back in there and life has been history since.

I think the entire reality of what I did really set in after the surgery. Ten days post op,I turned 48 and my family and friends threw me a party, but I felt like an outsider as I watched them eat. Oh yeah I had my morsel of salmon they cooked (back then Suh had you eating right away). I remember feeling so angry and left out. The food wasn't the issue really..what was the issue was how was I going to learn to socialize and not eat or drink...party...whatever.

By the time I started feeling better, I do not honestly think I cared about much of anything....I was just jazzed that I was losing and I did not have food hangovers. That was nearly 6 years ago, and to this day no matter how I feel, I have never regretted making the haste decision to alter my body and life.

We all echo similar experiences Shells, the fear of the unknown. However you are a smart woman and know that even though you are scared and the reality is setting in, you know are making the right decision for yourself and being there to live a long life for you and your son!

  

Thank you so much Janine!


Shells

Boy ,, I remember feeling scared,, but i was also excited too! This surgery is so worth it,, and i cant even explain the happiness i have inside. The only regret i ever had was not doing this surgery sooner! See, one time i chickened out... about 4 years before my surgery and now i look back and think,, man,, i missed 4 MORE YEARS of getting my life back. You will do great. You have a great support system here, people *****ally care about you. Just do what your doctor tells you and you will be fine! Marie

Thank you Marie! I totally understand the being scared and excited, my head almost can't sort the two out! LOL


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