WDYET Cali Crew? Thursday...
So I'm sitting here eating a banana nut muffin....cause I'm going nuts thinking about being to "skinny" after plastic surgery. Mindand for me that is probably in a 10 and YES being a 10 is bothering me. I ALMOST and I do say ALMOST wish I was having plastics at say 225 then I'd end up here...but anyway I digress. I went for a walk to clear my head, but my fat brain REALLY is f*cking with me right now, so I came back from my walk and saw the banana nut muffin and ate it...the WHOLE huge thing. NOW my tummy is IRRITATED and I STILL want to stuff my face and go cry somewhere. I know I'll get it under control but for now I'm having my own pity party that no one understands!!
B: Watermelon Smoothie (Lindora Wildberry protein powder; 1 cup watermelon; 1/2 cup strawberries; 1/2 cup water; ice)
S: Banana Nut Muffin
L: Who knows (but I'm guessing my Meatloaf)
S: Ditto above (but I'm guess the apple & cheese I have)
D: A gallon of pity sounds good right now
Water: 4 cups
Vitamins: Multi; 1500mg Cal Cit; 1000mcg B-12; etc
Exercise: 1 mile walk; another walk later
NEXT...
B: Watermelon Smoothie (Lindora Wildberry protein powder; 1 cup watermelon; 1/2 cup strawberries; 1/2 cup water; ice)
S: Banana Nut Muffin
L: Who knows (but I'm guessing my Meatloaf)
S: Ditto above (but I'm guess the apple & cheese I have)
D: A gallon of pity sounds good right now
Water: 4 cups
Vitamins: Multi; 1500mg Cal Cit; 1000mcg B-12; etc
Exercise: 1 mile walk; another walk later
NEXT...
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
I totally understand... when I get upset all I want to do is eat, eat, eat, eat and EAT but I can't! I can eat for 3 oz at the moment anything over that I will feel sickly! I get the "stuff your face and go cry somewhere". Sending you warm thoughts and I hope this goes away soon for you.
B: Protein shot (2.9 oz with 25 grams of protein)
S: greek yogurt with berries in it (4 oz)
L: Chicken, zucchini and mashed taters with a lil bit of cheese (3 oz)
S: Fruit and protein shot
D: Pork chop with sugar free spaghetti sauce and a lil bit of parmesean cheese melted and spaghetti squash (3 oz)
Water - i hope to get in my FULL water today
Vitamins - on track! Yay!
Exercise - walk
Next...
B: Protein shot (2.9 oz with 25 grams of protein)
S: greek yogurt with berries in it (4 oz)
L: Chicken, zucchini and mashed taters with a lil bit of cheese (3 oz)
S: Fruit and protein shot
D: Pork chop with sugar free spaghetti sauce and a lil bit of parmesean cheese melted and spaghetti squash (3 oz)
Water - i hope to get in my FULL water today
Vitamins - on track! Yay!
Exercise - walk
Next...
Started my journey - 450 lbs (VBG)
Had a revision at - 262 lbs (RNY)
Don't make me come over there and smack you. Seriously, you are dealing with body image issues at the moment. I am guessing, like myself, you have not been below 200 pounds for most, if not all, of your adult life. It's scaring you. Maybe you are afraid you won't be you anymore. Maybe everything that you had adjusted to in life as a fat woman you are afraid won't be there anymore. Maybe you won't know you anymore. Well, get yourself a mirror and introduce yourself to you.
The package shouldn't matter, but it does. You wouldn't be going to have plastic surgery if the package didn't matter to you. Why have plastics if you enjoy who you currently are? Why change that? I think that is something you must seriously think about before you play slice and dice. Be sure you are getting plastics for the right reason and try to figure out why a size 10 scares you?
OK, so I'll share that bottle of whine I have with you and we can both have a pity party.
LND: 1 regular taco, 1 chicken soft taco from Del Taco
LNS: I don't think I had anything, but I don't remember
B: toasted bagel and coffee light frapp.
S: Nothing
L: I think I'm going over to Chick Fill A and get a Chicken & Fruit Salad
S: A client brought in a danish ring and I'm trying not to have any. If it's not all gone by 3PM, I may break and have a small piece. Hopefully it will all be gone.
D: No freaken idea. We have bowling tonight and I have to talk to Mike and see what he wants.
S: Nothing as we don't get out of bowling until about 9:30. I'll come home watch some TV, get ready for bed and hopefully actually sleep as opposed to what I'm usually doing lately which is staring at the ceiling.
Water: I hate water
Vitamins: Yea
Exercise: bowling if I can with this darn hip
The package shouldn't matter, but it does. You wouldn't be going to have plastic surgery if the package didn't matter to you. Why have plastics if you enjoy who you currently are? Why change that? I think that is something you must seriously think about before you play slice and dice. Be sure you are getting plastics for the right reason and try to figure out why a size 10 scares you?
OK, so I'll share that bottle of whine I have with you and we can both have a pity party.
LND: 1 regular taco, 1 chicken soft taco from Del Taco
LNS: I don't think I had anything, but I don't remember
B: toasted bagel and coffee light frapp.
S: Nothing
L: I think I'm going over to Chick Fill A and get a Chicken & Fruit Salad
S: A client brought in a danish ring and I'm trying not to have any. If it's not all gone by 3PM, I may break and have a small piece. Hopefully it will all be gone.
D: No freaken idea. We have bowling tonight and I have to talk to Mike and see what he wants.
S: Nothing as we don't get out of bowling until about 9:30. I'll come home watch some TV, get ready for bed and hopefully actually sleep as opposed to what I'm usually doing lately which is staring at the ceiling.
Water: I hate water
Vitamins: Yea
Exercise: bowling if I can with this darn hip
Thank you for the bottle and that Brie thing you were describing. I'm having plastics because even at 300 I always wanted a flat stomach and being 345 and still only having a a/b cup I want bigger boobs too. NOW I have thought about gaining weight and THEN having plastics but well no but it's still a possibility. At this point I want to be done...I started seeing PS but everyone wanted me to be at least 18 months out yada yada...ok enough wine for now...
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
I don't consider it whining at all. I consider it dialog and every bit of it you have only makes you stronger and helps you make the decisions you want become reality.
So you want a flat tummy. If you were 300 pounds I don't think any plastic surgeon would touch you to give you a flat tummy. And if they would, you should run for the hills. So there you have it. Embrace the size 10 you are going to be with your flat tummy and bigger boobies. Just do yourself a favor, don't get carried away with the boobies. I've seen too many of our fellow WLS ladies go for the boob job and put these humongus beach balls on their chests and they look awful. Pick a size that you like, but that will look classy in clothes. Don't let your boobs enter the room 5 minutes before you do. Cause with your flat tummy, the boobies are going to look bigger anyway.
Steph
So you want a flat tummy. If you were 300 pounds I don't think any plastic surgeon would touch you to give you a flat tummy. And if they would, you should run for the hills. So there you have it. Embrace the size 10 you are going to be with your flat tummy and bigger boobies. Just do yourself a favor, don't get carried away with the boobies. I've seen too many of our fellow WLS ladies go for the boob job and put these humongus beach balls on their chests and they look awful. Pick a size that you like, but that will look classy in clothes. Don't let your boobs enter the room 5 minutes before you do. Cause with your flat tummy, the boobies are going to look bigger anyway.
Steph
Haha Steph thanks for the laugh...I'm actually getting my tummy done first so I'll see where I'll end up and THEN get boobs to go with my smokin flat size 10 tummy! I really know it's just my plastic surgery nerves manifesting in this weird way. I "thought" I had handled all these size 10 issues. But issues are ALWAYS there waiting...
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
But you see what talking about it did. You've gone from I don't want to be a size 10 because that number scares me to I'm really nervous about my plastic surgery so I'll just dwell on something else.
NOW you know what's going on with you and it's not fear of size 10 or looking like someone you don't know. It's surgery nervousness. THAT is perfectly normal.
OK, I'll be sending my bill to you in the mail because if I charge you here for my great psychological session, it would be in violation of TOS and then I'd be forced to offer a cruise to go along with it. Oh dayum I just crack myself up. I hope Kirsten reads this one.
NOW you know what's going on with you and it's not fear of size 10 or looking like someone you don't know. It's surgery nervousness. THAT is perfectly normal.
OK, I'll be sending my bill to you in the mail because if I charge you here for my great psychological session, it would be in violation of TOS and then I'd be forced to offer a cruise to go along with it. Oh dayum I just crack myself up. I hope Kirsten reads this one.
Oh chit...I DO remember you posting about charging when we respond to your posts...boys today I have wracked up a hefty sum =) Make sure you make a separate post to let me know my charges for wit and wisdom....that size 10 still makes me sick but if that's where I end up that's where I end up =)
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
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