Newbie, Getting The DS? Count The Costs Ahead Of Time

 I think I'm feeling overly emotional today. This post made me cry. I can relate on so many levels. 

 Wow, Dusty. Dayum. That brought tears to my eyes. You so get this!! For some of us, this is a full-time job with no breaks. And I get the Xanax drama. Girl, when I was pregnant and withdrawing!! I finally understood what an addict feels like in the withdrawl process. My heart and soul goes out to you and I bow to you for finding the strength to just keep going. Rocksteady to you.

Sia...  

Great post, a much needed read for anyone pre or post-op.

Miss seeing you here.



Lisa

 Chick you kicked this ***** into high-gear! You look ******g amazin'! Damn!! Work it! 

(((Sia)))

Love you, girlie. I am so sorry for everything you're going through. Won't say much more than that, because it sounds trite. But I think about you a lot and am pulling for you.

That you took the time and energy to share your wisdom to help newbies says a lot about you. This is an important post. One of the most important take-aways is "expect the unexpected".

I've been very lucky compared to you, but I am at the exact opposite end of the spectrum with the protein. I developed this scary ******g protein supplement allergy post-op. There is literally no shake that I can drink or bar that I can eat without going into anaphylaxis.

I have to force 120 grams of food protein down my gullet every single day.  Most days, this is no problem at all.  But some days, I'm sick and don't feel like it.  Other days I am fed up with meat and cheese and would rather scream than eat one more bite.

Yesterday was one of those days. Lori's thread on the protein shake actually made me cry because I am so jealous of people who have the freedom to supplement their protein that way.

But, it is what it is, and I rarely complain because I realize it could be a hell of a lot worse. The emotional stuff you talked about--yes, that too. Therapy helps but it isn't a panacea, and my issues run deep.

All of this is what I signed up for, and most days it's amazing. But there definitely was a price tag. Even as prepared as I was, I didn't expect 75% of what ended up happening.

Thank you for this. You are amazing.

 For ******g real. Two days a week I'm in therapy and I had a meltdown the day after Thanksgiving over my ******g thighs and if they looked fat. WTF?! And I can't help it at times. I think there was a lot of **** that this DS unearthed. It really forces you to see reality for the ***** or the blessings it can be. Please think about Syntrax Matrix, all the protein powders started doing exactly that to me. What they do to the protein is unreal and amazing!!! Much love to you. I love your daily strength, Chica. 

 Sia,

I'm so sorry for your losses.  I would have truly been brought to my knees.

Thank you for your wisdom an indisputable knack for communication.  We all needed this!  Some more than others.. but we ALL need to remember how lucky we really are.

Anna

 Damn, Anna!!!  Girl, you rocked the hell out of your DS, you look amazing!!! Thanks for the love! 

*****BIG HUGE HUGS****** It is so good to see you here dear lady! I wish I could find that damned magic wand and wave it over you. Damned thing is always gone at the pertinent times :-(.

I think of you far more often than my lack of correspondence shows

 I heart you, Mami!! i truly do.