hey everyone

hey ya'll! i have been missin several days...haven't been feelin well...kids have me running all the time with softball/baseball and track....plus my white cell count is up and my iron is 8 ...but thats awesome ...it  was only 6...so its goin up slowly....i am just so stinkin tired...doc said i didn't give myself time to heal after all the trauma i went thru ...so his orders....take it easy...ha ha with three kids...yeah!  i put a few highlights in my hair hopin this would make me feel better...then i realized how awfully thin my hair was! so i cut it...around shouder length dry...but to me its short...shortest i have ever had it since birth...lol...i was hopin it would thicken it...but nope....still thin...price to pay for health!  i hope all of you are doin well! all the newbies havin surgery....and already had it....you will be in my thoughts and prayers for a speedy recovery! and i am always around on the net...so if ya need a buddy give me a holler! all the semi newbies and old timers.....give me wisdom guidance and motivation....and many prayers....i feel bad...look bad(tired weak and worn out) and just bummed....not really depressed...well i am sure i am to some degree....i just need some energy....so when i take kids to activities....it wipes me out the rest of the time and i do nothing....i can't wait til i am able to keep up with them and maybe even pass them.... i did have a wow moment....if any of you remember...my long drawn out boring intro...lol 2 days before i had surgery...my daughter had a choir preformance...those dreaded lil fold down connected tiny not fat friendy chairs....well my big old butt could not even get half way on it....had to sit way up and knees pushed into chair in front of me ...i was ashamed...disgusted....well my goal was to be able to fit on it and set back by the last preformance before school lets out....well daughter pops up and says oh mom i am getting some awards for principal's list and something else....even after losing 100+ pounds....i was so scared/nervous to even show up....not only when i get there.....i go way off in the corner so no one could see me stuggle "the chair"....guess what????   i fit....it was not snug...i could move around in it...and someone could sit next to me without me hittin them....so i moved to center front roll....and so glad i did....they honored my baby with the highest awards...and said her tests scores where the highest the school has ever had...so proud mommy....when she walks up she high 5's me....grabs me up and plops on my lap...which i never had! and wraps her arms around me! greatest feeling/moment since her birth! :) i just wish i could channel those awesome times and fill up my gaps to get me goin....sorry for rambling....but just wanted to say hi....and to let you all know i think about you all often....i may not have lots of close buddies on here....or directly talk to you or respond to your messages...but on good days i read them all!....but you all touch my heart in different ways....i love how some of you are so positive...even when you shouldn't...always something nice to say...and some of you that are so stinkin direct..that i think thanks i needed that....you just tell it how it is....each of you are so special on this journey with me....we have so many different views....personalities....humor...to which it makes me have a better day just logging on.... so thank you! much love and big hugs Kim

Congrats on your wow moment!   I look forward to the time when I don't have to wedge my butt into the seat.  And I can tell you I won't miss the bruises on my thighs.  Best Wishes, Kim

oh yes the dreaded bruises! This was just too good of a feeling....i even got up and down a few times...just to make sure i was not dreamin...ha ha thank you! hugs Kim

Kim~ You are doing great! Hang in there....those WOW moments will be coming fast! Congrats to your daughter on her awards.  Sending you HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS and SMILES! Janene

awww thanks babydoll!  sneak to marion during the day...school hours for kids...and we will grab a salad! big hugs...hope all is well your way! Kim

Kim, honey, I understand exactly what you felt about the chairs in the school auditorium.  My daughters had the same stuff here, and I was very uncomfortable in them.....so I wound up sitting on the floor at the front instead.  When my oldest DD had her musical program last month, I sat in the seats just fine, without any trouble.  It is a wonderful feeling, isn't it!

Have a wonderful day! Enjoy the sun!

LaChelle

Thank you... It is a wonderful feeling!  I love this weather! I will definitely enjoy the day.... Take care and have an awesome day... big hugs Kim

congrats on your daughters awards also on your wow moment my boys are always wanting me to come to schoolbut i avoid it because i dont want to have them embarrased by my size. bu****ch out next school year when someof the weight is gone ill be there for everything...... atleast youll have a cool haircut for the summer take care of yourself and enjoy the day

congratulations to both you and your daughter. tell her to keep up the hard work. it does pay off! i've been very blessed that i haven't had to spill a dime for my phd, master's, or bachelor's because of scholarships and work opportunities. it can be done! and i can't wait until i get to the bleacher seat stage. lol, i am going to a cubs game or a concert or something. of course none of my friends will want to be with me because i'll be doing the gopher. "look at me. i'm sitting in 1 chair comfortably. i'm standing. i'm sitting again. i'm going to twist around. oh look, someone needs in and i don't have to stand up but i can....." :D