Wednesday

Hello, and good morning to all!  I haven't been around much lately to post because I have been busy working.  Uggh! I am ready for a vacation!  That isn't going to happen any time soon tho, so oh well. Hope things are going well for you all.  It hasn't been a bed of roses here lately........DH is really having issues right now, and has really been giving me hell for things I know nothing about.  I know he needs back on his meds, but refuses to even see a dr for anything now.  I just go with the flow right now and take it one day at a time.  Please keep him and the rest of our family in your prayers.  He really needs prayers now.  Thanks. So, is anyone else driving down for Jen's wedding?  I hope so!  It is going to be a pretty wedding.  I can't wait just to see her. Not much of anything else going on right now.  Just working quite a bit, but the OT is going to be cut out after this weekend.  We will have enough dealers to cover empty spots soon, so that will take care of that.  Not that I really minded, but the US government was enjoying the overtime pay, not me! LOL   Time to get the girls up for school.  They only have 3 more weeks until they are out for the summer.  They are headed to their Grandmothers on June 2nd, so I want to spend as much time with them that I can while they are still here.  They won't be back home until the end of July, so the whole summer will be spent without them.........UGGH!!! I love my girls, and wish they could spend the whole time here with us, but I understand that they never get to spend any time with my MIL except during the summer.  It is good for them, as well as us, because with summer being the busy season, there is no way I can just take off and do things with them.  They understand.  It is so much easier for all of us.   Gotta go. Have a great day.  Sorry I have rambled on this morning.  I just have many things on my mind. It just seems easier to type than to speak it! LOL 

Good morning everyone!                              I started my day off being a BAD girl! I kicked it off by drinking a huge glass (32 oz I think) of ice tea..WITH caffiene! I think I'm going to need that burst today. I ended up staying up far later than I should have. I just found the primary info interesting! It was almost like watching a special item on e-Bay!                                LaChelle..I feel for you girl. I have been going through crap with Bill lately too. With us, everything will go along beautifully for 6 months-a year. No problems, no arguements, nothing. And then he'll get a wild hair up his butt and BOOM! Well..the BOOM! was last Friday night. FOR 3 HOURS! Some of the crap he came out with left me totally shocked. I was pretty close to speechless from the get-go of it. It just totally throws me for a loop every time he does this. After 9 years...so 12-15 times of this happening...you'd think I'd be use to it by now, but I'm not. I DO have his MO down though. Let's see..he shoots off his mouth & I really think he does this just to see how upset he can get me. Most of what he shoots off about is not based on fact, is from YEARS ago (this time, it was from back in 2002!), or is just totally & completely wrong. It usually includes that he doesn't think our marriage is going to make it and that I am just for his money (the only money he spends on 'me' is my dinner when we go out to eat or my ticket at SOME amusement parks..I've also bought his at other parks though, my flowerbeds...since they improve the house value, and kitchen-ware...like my pressure cooker for Christmas). Those are two common themes anyway...the other themes vary from BOOM! to BOOM!. Oh..and a little bit of rum & coke always helps encourage his tongue!  #1 rule of a past bar owner: Never try to argue with a drunk! So...best thing I can do is to try to get him to shut up & go to bed. Anyway, after the initial blast, we then spend a few days of 'silent treatment' which is usually accompanied by a few jerk-butt emails. By the end of week 1, he is starting to talk ALMOST like nothing ever happened...except for a snide remark now & then. By week 2, if everything isn't back to normal, it is MY fault...shouldn't I be over all that by now??                                I have come to think of these times as his semi-anual PMS time. They usually occur shortly after he has been left to his own devices. It doesn't matter if it was HIS fault he was alone during that period..or if I had any control over it at all. For instance, back in 2005, I, with his APPROVAL, booked and I PAID FOR a 12 day trip for both of us that included Orlando & Dayton, Cancun, and a Bahama cruise. 3 weeks before the trip, he decided he wasn't going. I would had lost all the money if I had just canceled. So my sister said she'd go. I paid the transfer fees. A week before the trip, she backed out of it so I ended up having to go alone. Trust me, Cancun at the start of hurricaine season is NOT a place a non-spanish speaking female wants to be at by herself! I came home to Mr. PMS. 6-12 months later, the same sister asked me to go to Philly with her. Bill readily thought that would be good for helping mine & Cindy's relationship (no, she did NOT pay for my part! Nor did she ever pay me back for what I was out of pocket for the trip the year before for all the transfer fees I was out of). If Cindy wasn't in sessions for work, she was drinking like a fish (and yes, she is a post-op!!). So.I pretty much spent the time ALONE in Philly too. And I came home to Mr. PMS. While I was in the hospital in October..not my fault, right? Well...after my coma, still not able to walk or anything, via phone, Mr. PMS. So now.with me back to work and still not at 100% (shoot..I'm not even sure how much of the day I'm at 50%!!), Mr. PMS. At least at some point your DH has been given meds. I really think Bill needs on Prozak or something but he refuses to see that he MIGHT have a problem...I am the one with the problem! Jeesh! Men...you can't live with them and you can't shoot them! The whole time he was PMS'ing Friday night...so 3 hours...he was sitting at the diningroom table. I was standing by the sink (I had came in the kitchen to take pain meds!). The more he shot off his mouth, the more I was looking at my glass candy dish on the table and thinking 'you know...if I threw it at him and missed, it sure would make a nice sound hitting the glass sliding dor behind him...and if I didn't miss...well...win-win'. And then I'd think 'but that's MY candy dish and why should I break something  of mine because of him?'. So his head was safe because of a $9.95 candy dish!                To change the subject...I saw a specialist yesterday because of the hemmeroids. He can't do anything until the diarhea is gone since it would just irritate the area. I had a feeling he'd say that. He told me after that is taken care of, if the hemmeroids persist, then come back. He'd do surgery then. I asked him how long I'd be off of work. I was hoping I could have it on Friday and come back on Monday but he said I'd have to be off for 1 full week because of the pain meds & that first week you have to take frequent warm baths to soothe the area. But he did give me a script for the internal ones and then recommended something else for the external that is suppose to be OTC but Walgreen's had never heard of it. He'd given me a few samples...and the closest active ingredients I could find was on Destinin. So Jodi...I'm gonna try the baby-butt route for awhile too! LOL!                Well...I better get some work done. Have a good Primary-free day!                                     Sherri

DESITIN ROCKS!!!!!

I have yet to use it on Quinntin though, hahahahahahahaha!

Good Mornign All! LaChelle hang in there girl! I once heard it said "if it has 4 tires or testosterone it will give you trouble in life!" I have foubnd this to be sooo true! lol Men and vehicles!  top 2 enemies of women!  lol I am learning to just remain silent and just let my huby rant and rave when it is heis PMS time! It does no good to argue about something i will do as I please anyway so...I just won't waste my energy anymore. It really gets him when I refuse to argue. ;o) Sheri, hang in there for your will get stronger everyday1 I will tell you my plastics took alot out of me and there are still some days I peter out quickly!  Life has been hectic for me and I am keeping busy. Still working on that 10 pound range i give myself to get back on the lower end but my size is the same  so I am not sweating it just trying to become more aware of what and when I am eating. My hubbys ex is in from Germany for a couple of weeks and that is exhausting :o) We get along well but it is more of the stress I see in Jon when she is around that makes it uncomfortable. I think it is sad to see her knowing she probably made a mistake in leaving her life here and returning to her home country. They have an awesome son together and I love him like my own and feel so blessed to have him as part of my family. He graduated from the police academy last Friday and we are so happy totsee him loving the field he has always dreamed of working in.  On a new note...I found that Special K protein packets for drinks! It is Fabulous! only 30 calories per packet and 5 grams of protein...I am loving it! Gets me back into the water with great taste and added protein. Not bad with 4 bottles a day for 120 calories and 20 grams of protein. Made with spenda it is AWESOME!! I love the pink lemonade and am trying the iced tea and kiwi strawberry today.  We are leaving on vacation for Vegas the end of this  month for the fist 10 days of June. I am soooo ready!! We didn't think this was going to happen as money has been so tight and all but Vegas is a place where we can have a great vacation CHEAP! lol So I am all ready to start packing my weasle wear and spend my days lounging by the pool!  Hope you all have a fabulous day! Hugs! Marianne

Marianne...can John give Bill lessons? I WISH keeping quiet would do it! I WISH agreeing with him would do it! Shoot, I WISH that us getting along was an indication that we...well..that we were getting along!                         Physically, I think what I am feeling is more the hernia repair than the plastics. Every since the weekend I've been having pain again in places that I hadn't had pain for 3-4 weeks. That scares me. When I'm upright, I also see/feel pooching that I didn't see 1-2 weeks ago. It scares me that maybe the mesh isn't holding. Sunday, It felt like my stomach was trying to bust open so I measured my waist and it was 3.5" larger than it was the Sunday before. It was down to only an inch larger yesterday. I see Dr. Bergman again on May 21st so I am going to be sure to point that out to her if it conitinues. I don't see Dr. Gupta until June.                            So...not enough to have this worry with my body, but Bill has to show his butt too. He's even sent his jerk-butt emails to me at work...I guess if he is miserable, I should be too...even when I am getting paid to think about something that has nothing to do with him. Sherri

Good morning to all my fellow Hooseiers Losers and all the future ones too. I hope that this is a good hump day for all.  It is cloudy here this morning. Bill says it is cool outside too. I really thought that spring was here. I guess I must have jinxed it. I do that a lot of times. lol I am going to the grocery store this morning. I hate doing that now. I use to enjoy it but now I just hold my breath until I get through that check out line. Seeing how much groceries are now takes your breath away for sure! I just wish the gas would come down some so that maybe the groceries would too but something seems to tell me none of that is going to happen any time soon.  I ended up not going to my wls support group meeting last night. I just couldn't seem to get my tiney hiney in gear to get ready. I was all gung ho to go and then when it came to about an hour before I was suppose to leave. Oh well, I guess you will have that at times.  Today after Bill leaves for work I have some errands to do and then it is back home to finish up the cabinets that I started yesterday. I am transferring things from one to another. Since I got that pantry cabinet about a month ago I cleared out a lot of my kitchen cabinets. So doing this is a good thing for me to be doing. It means that I have more kitchen cabinet space and when do you ever have more of that without putting more in the kitchen?! I better get going. I am getting looks from Bill since he is going to grocery with me. He goes with me and has the honor of packing and carrying them. I think that says "I love you, honey." more than anything else. Does not all the women out there agree with me? I am keeping you all in my prayers today. And special prayers are being said for all who need them. I am sending love and hugs to all for a great day. Stay happy where you are and you will be happy in your life. There I go again with that~not sure where that is coming from and I am wondering if God is trying to tell me something. Sometimes I have a lot of problems being happy here at home. Bill is a peice of work at times too so maybe that is what is trying to be told to me! HMMMM....I gotta think about that one for sure!

Hey Everyone!!!!

I'm slowly getting normalcy back in my life. Slowly. Unforunately, it's not fast enough for some people. COUGH*MATT&GAGE*COUGH. Serioulsy girls, I think there is an over abundance of male PMS going on in the air. I'm about to pull my hair out. My mom too. We are going on strike and not cooking for them for the rest of the week. They wanna act ungrateful then they can find out how ungratefully *****y we can be! Good thing Q's too cute to catch on to their crap! HAHA!

Anyways, I'm doing better each day. Working on wedding things still. Can't believe it's less then three months away. Still don't have my bridesmaid's dresses yet. Nor are the men ready for their suits. And I still have to find a place to rent folding chairs and a large area rug here in Crawfordsville or someplace close by. EGHADS!!!!

Slowly moving my meals back over to 1500 calories and 75 g of protien. It's hard to kick off the bad habits I've seemed to have developed to get through the chemo and radiation and keep weight from falling off of me. I'm hoping that by next week when I see my chemo doc that my blood work is okay and I can start incoporating some exercising. It'll be nice to get back on my program and find energy again.

Well off to do laundry and maybe take a nap with Q.


Jodi

I swear there is something in the air!  Male PMS does exist and I personally think it has to do with a build up of testosterone!  My DH is wonderfull 99% of the time and treats me like a queen.  The other 1% of the time I want to kill him.  Most of his rages usually aren't directed at me becasuse I've learned it isn't worth it to disagree with what he says UNLESS I'm totally opposed to it.  Yesterday he called me, at work, wanting to know what I had done with his aunts garage door opener that he keeps in his car.  I said I hadn't touched it. The last time I went to mow for her she was home and I didn't take it.   He was certain that I had it and was lying to him. So I slammed the phone down on him.  When I got home last night I asked him if he found it.  He had, wouldn't say where. But do you think he'd apolgize for the false accusations??? NOOOOOO.  I'm not talking to him till I get an apollogy.  Two can play that game.  Guess his testosterone can continue to build if you know what I mean.

Many sympathies to all us women dealing with the men in our lives!! Mine hasn't been too bad, just impatient and crabby in general due to cir****tances completely out of our control.  He's trying to get a new job with Orkin, but protein showed up in his urine at his physical.  To rule out diabetes and other issues (since you can't hold a CDL in Indiana if you are diabetic, which he is NOT), he had to do a 24 hr urine test...dropped it off this morning, and it could be up to two weeks to get the results to our doctor, who then has to fax a statement to Orkin's medical headquarters in Atlanta, before he can get his offer finalized and a start date.  Ack!! So he's driving me bonkers on a daily basis. Me, I'm feeling great! Two weeks post op today, getting in my fluids and protein just fine, and down 13.6 pounds.  I can already see and feel a difference in my tops, my abdomen/hips are still pretty swollen I think.  My feet are even smaller already! I wore my summer sketchers this morning, and last summer they barely fastened and dug into the tops of my fat feet...not today! Woohoo! I've been walking every day since surgery, and as of this morning's two mile trek, I've completed 21 miles in two weeks. 

Hope everyone stays dry with the rain in the forecast...enjoy your political commercial-free TV!

Good Afternoon All, Just got home from getting a tooth filled.   it will feel better soon. My friend in MO called me last night, I told her about how much weight I lost 204.5 lbs and  101.5 ins. So i am down to 198 lbs ,she  cried, me too, I  keep reading paper that they gave me at ST'V  BC. I have a scan this afternoon @ 4:30 I am not looking  forward to that . But Dr Huse wants to make I don't have more 1 herina's.  Well I am kinda happy I don't have a hubby right about  now  . LOL I am going to be Jamie's      so I can give updates on her surgery Monday. I hope I can go see her. She's a real   I think her user name is jjarell2.  I am sending healthy wishes to those in need.    Love to All, Hugs and Blessings, Gail