so how important is walking? (i'm scared)

i'll admit i'm scared and rationalizing here.  but really - how important is being able to walk through a grocery store, or out to the mailbox, or the state fair, or the renfest... anyway? i've been not working/walking since may, when i fell and broke my foot and tore my rotator cuff. they tell me my right ankle is CRUMBLING - so when i walk and hear the crunching and popping, it's actually me fracturing my heel some more.  it can't be reversed-the bone is dead.  it can't be replaced-there's not enough good bone to attach an ankle replacement to.  it needs to be fused.  which means limited motion for the rest of my walking days. honestly - as the surgery date approaches (nov 21), i'm getting increasingly scared.  and i'm beginning to wonder whether or not it's something i should do.  i already lost 200 lbs.  do i really need to be able to walk, with a limited walk, so i can lose more weight?  your thoughts on this issue would be appreciated.  so would any prayers you could send for a successful surgery-if i don't chicken out.  at this point the thought of another surgery, and the recovery it entails, are scaring me s&!tless.  if you've read this far, thanks for caring. have a wonderful turkey day - hugs

Dorthe, I am so sad to hear that your ankle/heel are in such bad shape that cannot be fun to deal with.  I will definitely keep you in my prayers that you are able to get it taken care of.  God Bless! Nicole

thanks nicole.  i appreciate the prayers.  and i love the signature block.  footprints isone of my favorites.  have a great week. hugs dorthe

 

I know you are scared!!!  But this is only a decision you can make sweetie.....I am not in your shoes and cannot offer any advise -- I can't imagine not being able to walk, even on a limited basis, but I also haven't had to confront that issue.  It is not just walking -- what about your beloved riding and biking???  You can't just give it up without a fight -- limited is better than none.   And the longer you wait, the less bone there is to fuse together.  Then, as I read your signature line, perhaps your answer is there.  Things will come out better than they are now, if only for a short time.  But none of us knows how much time we have for anything.   All surgery means healing and a huge pain in the butt.  But technology keeps changing and who knows what the future will bring.  They may get in there and be able to fix just enough to help while other choices catch up or change. 

I will pray that God sends you your answer and that he guides your doctors.   XXOO  -- Missed you at coffee this morning.  Love ya.  PM me if you ever want any visitors -- I'm sure the girls will car pool to your house!!!!

hi barb.  i missed you at coffee, too.  i appreciate the input and i know you're right - perhaps something better will come along down the line, if i'm given more time down the line, that is.

thanks for the prayers and the offer for visitors.  God willing, i'll be able to do that again - soon.

take care. have a great week hugs dorthe

 

 

 

 

how awful for you to have to make this decision- for being in the situation you are....

I'm so sorry but Barb's right - this is YOUR decision to make!!

Good luck with whatever you decide!!!

thanks.  my decision's slightly less tentative tonite that it was this morning.  i guess that's a good sign, huh?

have a great turkey day

dorthe

I wish you the best with what ever decision you make. My thoughts and prayers will be there for you.

(((((((Dorthe)))))))) connie d

thanks connie.  i'll take all the thoughts and prayers i can get. 

and the hugs, too.

happy thanksgiving

hugs

dorthe

Wow - THAT is a hard spot to be in!  I can't even imagine bone literally crumbling inside me!   You asked, so here's what I think. I think you have to examine your perspective.  Lots of people get by just fine without limbs.  They'd probably be thrilled to have an opportunity to have limited motion in a limb they're currently without. Walking IS important.  Mobilitly IS important.  But life can go in - QUALITY LIVING can happen - without it.  So what am I saying?  Well, it's your choice.  But I think taking a chance at having the best POSSIBLE outcome is better than just accepting what you currently have.   But I'm not in your situation, either.  Only YOU know all the considerations.  I wish you peace with whatever you decide