OK its my turn, I guess....

I have been feeling so down the past couple of days. I feel this overwelming feeling of just 'disappearing' for a while and see if any one notices.......My DH and I are not 'talking' just seems to be friction at home. He is 'irritating' me sometimes I am sure its on purpose. My job is taking alot out of me, can't seem to stay focused and it is really driving me nuts because some of the people I work with and my clients are really clueless sometimes and their 'stupidity' is getting to me.....I really am just not this way usually. I pride myself with being a very patient person and as of late I am not. I feel like shouting and biting nails!!! I am trying to remember all my blessings and everything I have to be so Thankful for, and there is so many things, but its not working this time. I just need some positive thoughts and prayers to get thru this time.  I think more things on the inside are changing and I feel differently about some things than I used to and it scares me.  I have been having thoughts or feelings lately that I am standing at a crossroads in my life and not sure which direction to take. It scares me. It excites me. The unknown. What if I make a mistake. What if I upset someone that I love? I am anxious to move forward, I am stilled by my uncertainness. Thanks for reading my rambles....... CarolN

Carol, Thanks for sharing your troubles with us.  We are not meant to be an island, we were ment to be in community. I am sorry you are going through some tough times.  After reading your post I said a prayer as requested (I would have done it anyway).  I prayed for God's comfort, clarity, wisdom to be upon you.  I also prayed that you and your family have grace and mercy among each other. Love and support to you sweetie! Stacie

Thanks so much, 'surgery sister' Means alot for your support!!  (((HUGS))) Carol

Totally not rambling!!



Ok OH 'rs. I think the winter blahhhhs have got us! many people are depressed, not feeling very good about them selves and are just feeling sad. I kow it is hard to lift the spirtis of someone who is feeling down in the dumps. I am going to go out on a ledge and i am not 100% sure what type of crossroads you are at but I am going to throw some help at you and take what you can use, and toss the rest. Hope it helps.



Love life- marriage is a partnership that needs constant work. When one party isn't working at it, it feels like it is fragile. I think there are many ups and down, and when the down coinside with a person feeling down, it feels like the situation is much worse than it might really be.



Remember when you were your heavyest and the world sucked? It is like you feel like you look like crap, no energy, nothing to do because you don't want to go anywhere. You are so much lighter now, and even when you are in a lul in life it is much better than it was.. I truely believe there has to be downs in life or we wouldn't so much appreciate the ups in life.



The only thing i know for sure is that the OH'rs that have gone beofre me have led me through the heavyest times in my life which are traditionally the worst. I wish I could take some of the happiness you have given me and give it back to you. It is a beautiful bright shiny moment each time I get inspired by you.



I am sure it is sounding like I am off my rocker, but without change, nothing can get better.



I hope you feel like yourself again soon! Spring is just a hop-skip-and a jump away!

Thank you so much for your support! I hope this is just the winter blues getting in my way!!! Yep, spring is just around the corner.... Carol

Carol, So sorry to hear that you're struggling.  I think this is one of those times that come up during the journey of WLS that none of us really knew would happen.  Our bodies on the outside are changing so drastically and all of a sudden without realizing it or intending it to happen we find that we have changed.  Be comforted that this is a normal process and that it is a good time because it really allows you to take a long, hard look at who you are and what changes you need to make to become who you've wanted to be so long.  It may all be scary now - but I'm almost positive that you will come through it in a much better place. As they always say...what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!  You, my dear, are a very strong person - but a test every now and then reminds you to keep following God's plans and not your own. May God give you peace and blessings through this troubling times. Love you - Tracy

Tracy, You are a jewel to me!!! I have admired you since I started on this board......Thanks so much for the support and the prayers.... CarolN

Carol. I just sent you a PM

I am so over winter and find that alot of people have the winter blues. Sounds like you could use a break. Maybe a girl's weekend? Do some self pampering and get some time to yourself. This time year being couped up in the house with the hubby gets on my nerves. So I'm packing up the kids and visiting family in Wisconsin for a week. Maybe a change of pace for a week or log weekend may help. Hang in there. ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

Carol.... As you know, I'm right there with you.  I do know that everyone here on the board is behind us in supporting us with love and hugs and prayers. I am praying for you to be lifted emotionally and spiritually and that you come out of this slump quickly.  As has been said - take some time for yourself.  I know it isn't always easy when you have a family, but it is important to do that for you.  Love & hugs Laurie