WHATS HAPPENING FRIDAY

Today I went and had my yearly boob smashing thing done .lol Hey you know what it wasn't nearly as painful this time as years past. I guess cause there wasn't that much to squeeze this year. Also had a bone density test done also. Those are both done now for another year. Yea!!!The bone density test was an easy one . you lay down they run a machine over your spine and hips to take pictures of your bones that they then run the pictures thru a machine of some sort and take all sorts of measurements. I guess they know what that all means I will just wait for the results put on paper. Lol Lots of new people posting today with lots of questions. Glad to see the board so active and welcome to all the newcomers. We all love to see newbies. My Iris are all blooming so pretty, the special bed of special Iris that I bought are all beginning to get buds on them so they will be blooming soon too. The carnations are in bloom and the dianthus also. Still no life seen on my crepe myrtles tho. The Clematis are blooming so pretty but the roses still don't have buds on them again since the frost. I sure hope it didn't damage things too badly. I guess I am going to have to go buy some things already in bloom so I will have more color to look at right now. Lol. I planted all of my impatients over in the flower bed in front of the trailer. It is about 3 ft wide and about 50 ft long. I still have more to plant in there but it sure is looking pretty. JANET: Bless your heart forsending my sister the card . I know she will appreciate it a lot. Hey for the stepping stone what is the mold made of? Do you have to spray it or anything first? Was just wondering . I have several pans of different shapes that might make cute molds for the stone. What do you think ? That is such a shame that the girls father is such a jerk. Im sorry about that for them. You have had a lot on your plate here lately , give yourself a break about the crying and all. It is probably just the stress of all of the crap that you have been going thru and dealing with. Sorry sweetie, Hope it all comes to a head and stops here before long. Lets hope that Mike gets some good news at the doctor and doesn't add to the the disabled list too. No I haven't heard from Trudy or Julia Wish someone that lives in Sedalia that know where she lives. ( in apartment complex close to the park that isnt Liberty Park That is all I know. Sorry your tomato plants didn't make it . If I had more of them I would bring them to you but they are all gone now. MELISSA: So how is the knee feeling today? Hope it is healing on its own. You may have just pulled the muscles that hold your knee up the way it is suppose to be. And needs rest to work again. How is Terry and your fil? Hope they are both not needing you too much and letting the let have time to heal. I am praying that your blood clot is going away and the blood thinners can be stopped. Does taking them make you tired? That is amazing that you have lost half of what you use to weigh. Wow. That is a big wow moment. I bet you will lose a lot more before it is all over with. World you better watch out, here comes Melissa. Lol LANA: LOL the not remembering stuff that is funny, I just told Joe that the other day too. But I have a theory about all of that. The more weight we lose the smaller our heads get so we can only hold so much in there lol Hope that explains it all to you all. See it was simple. NO? COLETTE: Glad your hubby is getting back to normal, what ever that may be. Im not a very good judge of what normal is . lol Hey that is neat that after a year you can keep on losing weight. I wish I could get my protein higher and also my water but it seems the harder I try to increase it the more life gets in the way an for some reason or the other it never gets to the increased levels. Tell me how much protein you are getting in daily? How abou****er. Thanks for the info. Oh wanted all of you to know that next week we have 3 people having surgery. The third one is Rick B. on the 10th. Hers will be in Sedalia. I am her angel so her young son is suppose to call me and let me know how she is doing after surgery. Ricky good luck and I know you will do great. Make sure my phone number is in your sons hands before you have surgery. Love you girl. LOVE AND JOY AND PEACE ABOUNDS JAN

Hello all! Get ready for a long post, sorry I been gone along time! Thank you for all the emails worring about me. I am doing alot better. Thanks Wings for giving everyone an update. I wanted to first say how much I loved meeting everyone at the meeting down in Springfield!! I hated to leave all of you guys. From the day after I got home I started getting really sick and so did hubby. We were running fevers had chills, (our doctors said they think that we have somethng called MRSA) It takes 2-3wks to find out for sure, after they do the test. So we are having to wait on that. Because we were in bed for a few days, (being in bed for long periods of time is so bad for my back) it went out completely) Then after being able to get out of bed, I had to go to Columbia, (they called and wanted me to come down that night), to let them do another sleep study on the CPaP. I know I should have made myself get up and go to the computer in the kitchen and post but I couldnt hardly walk by myself and sitting was killing me. I woke up from a sound sleep this last Sunday at 5:00 in the morning with bad pains in my chest, (it felt like an elephant was sitting on me) Rory rushed me to the hospital. They did all these tests and found out I have an enlarged heart and poss. blood clots in my legs. They gave me so much meds that I went home and almost slept for 24hours. Its stupid that I told the ER doctor all the pain meds I have to take daily and the goofy guy asks me if I want a prescription of pain med to take home. What??? Not unless you want me coming back later because I'm "OD"ing. I did the stress test and waiting on the veinous doppler (???) test to be done yeaaaaaa more tests, lol!! Now for the good news, I have to go to Columbia on the 8th of May, I have my appointment with Dr. Sohota, to pick up the cpap machine. As soon as I get it I fax them the invoice saying I have it. Then I have an appointment in Columbia again on the 14th of May with Dr. Halstenfon. I think it is a pre op psyciatrist appointment Dr. Scotts office has you go thru to make sure you are ready to have the surgery, (not sure of this). Now guess what, my OH family, Are ya sitting down???? :jump I have been approved by the insurance company for surgery!!! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Once I get the copies of ER visit and Stress test results from the hospital faxed to Dr Scotts they are ready to set up next appointment for all that stuff that takes a half a day to do in their office. So its almost here, make room on that losers bench baby, I'm coming soon, lol. I want every person on this site to know, "I COULDNT OF MADE IT THRU EVERYTHING WITHOUT YOU ALL"!!!! It is so amazing how close you can get to people that you havent even met. I believe everyone one who has posted here has said something about what I have gone thru myself and thought I was the only one hurting or have been hurt by mean and cruel people. The worst part of it is some of those people can even be family members that should never treat you bad and make you feel so much pain and embaressment (sp) about your body and stuff. You all took me in and made me feel so welcome and I owe where I am and where I know I will be to all of you!!!! I am starting to get a little scared now that I know this is going to happen, but I know when I feel alone or need advice and help you all are here. I love ya all for that feeling, thank you!!!!!!!!!! Okay, enough of that mushy stuff,(I am a big bad bounty hunter and I have to keep my cold hard image,LOL) Just wanted to let you all know how I feel about ya, and you better know that!!!!!!!! (Dog the bounty hunter and I will come down there and get ya all!!!!) I loved everyone there in Springfield, it was so great, I cant wait to do it again!!!! I dont get to see my adopted sisters very often. Maybe next time I come I can stay in a town closer, (I would love to see that garden of Jans!) Since this was so long I dont want to forget anyone but I have kinda fell out of the circle and what is happening with everyone lately, (there are so many new people here I need introductions,LOL! If I miss anyone below I am sorry, the minds the first to go, (wish some one would tell my boobs that)! How is Julia doing? Its been so long since I have heard from her. I hope everything is going well for her. Tammy Way to go on the weight loss!!! Sis, we gotta get this surgery at the same time so we can share a room and drive Wings crazy. Poor girl is about crazy now, (ya know I love ya Wings!!) maybe a trip up to Columbia would be like a much needed vacation for her and we get them to bring in another bed for the room, what a pj party that would be (I'll pay for the gas,lol) Jan Thank you so much for the plants at the meeting!! I am trying very hard to make you proud. I was not joking when I said I cant even grow weeds! I did what you said about the epson salt in the potting soil. One looks great but the other ne has no leaves and just looks like a stick in the pot. Should they be in direct sun light or shade? Thanks to JON, even my hubby is calling you the plant lady!! Mel Heard about your fall! Hope you are doing better soon. We gotta get together again you and Lana was cracking me up after the meeting. I am praying as always for you and your family. Lana It was so great to meet ya! Hows your hubby doing with those earth worms and the turtles? You must be one heck of a woman to get that city slicker out in the country, LOL!! (After meeting you I know you are!!!) BEL Hope you are doing okay. Sorry I havent had the energy to read the past posts yet. Hope you are coming along with your doctors for surgery. Looking forward to that drive in movie. I am going on the 18th or the 25th of this month, Pirates of the Caribian. part 3 is coming out. Johnny Depp, hubba hubba!!! YOu are more than welcome to come. Sugar I hope things are getting better. I dont know if you are feeling up to posting lately but I just wanted to let you know I am praying for you every morning to get better. I really wanted to get to depaul to visit you and it was that afternoon when I started feeling so bad and didnt want to take the chance of giving you a germ, things are rough enough for ya lately. I just know that things are gonna get better soon. Charlotte I seen what you posted about our pets being like family members, you are very right!! I have a 13yr old border collie and I dont know what I will do when he is gone. I have had him longer than my hubby, (and sometimes I like him more)LOL! Take care girl and let us know about that first appointment with the dr. Wings What can I say to you that I havent already said. I love ya girl and I am praying for you and your family thru out each day. You know if you ever need me all you have to do is call. Dont know what I can do but I can always get down there if ya need an extra shoulder to lean on. (I know Mel is there for ya put ya got me too, anytime ya need me). Dont ever worry about the gas, I'll write it off with the company,lol) And that goes for everyone of my sisters and brothers here on OH. I am always a phone call or email away!! Started missing you guys when I pulled out of that firehouse/police station parking lot. Take care and glad to be back! Love, Susan

Good Morning Everyone: Well today is the day I hopefully find out if I get to stop take my BTer's. I sure hope so I am ready to be off those pills. At least they are better then the shots they started me out on. But all in all I am ready to be done with that bad memorie!! Terry is asleep, Dad is sitten in the kitchen eating breakfast. I got up and didnt see him in his room. So I went to the kitchen there he sat at the table with the refridg open half way. Lord Give Me Strength!!! Do you think this is a test from God on weather I would make it as a parent?? Didnt sleep well last night. I just felt so sorrowfully!! I dont know if it is my neice I am worried about, or my sis that is going thro some much right now, or anger at parents who dont wanna have nothing to do with their children that God blessed them with. And here Terry & I wanna have a child so bad. Terry and his leg, Dad and his stage he is going thro. (last night he got up around 11ish and told Terry that he wrecked the car and left it on the isde of the road) Seems like he has these spells at night alot. Friends here on the board with up coming surgerys or who are waiting for their dates, and the list goes on and on. But it doesnt feel like worry just a real heavey heart (sad sort of). I prayer and gave it to God. But everytime I turn around I find myself crying. Maybe I am getting hormonal?? lol So glad to see so many people on the board the last few days!!! Susan: So glad to see your smiling face on here again!! Janet & I were so worried about you. We were ready to come looking for you!!! Congrats on your apporval for surgery!!! that is such great news!!! Tammy~ammy: Hey sweetie are you counting down the days until you get to go see Dr. Scott?? I know he is going to be so proud of you and the weight that you have lost. Gurl I am so proud of you for sticking with it and keeping in mind what you set your eyes on for the prize. I will give ya a hollar sometime today. Sugar: So glad to see your beatiful face here on the board again!!! You sure have been in our thoughts and prayers!!! I am so excited about getting to see you at the meeting again. Andrew: Where are you buddie Craig: You could come out of hiding also!!! Colette: Welcome back you sure have been missed while you was gone. Thanks for the email yesterday. Trust me I will be calling and talking to you!!! Michele: I hope school is going good for you. And I look foward to your reply to my email. Lana: I'm willing to bet that you will look stunning in anything you find to wear!!!!!! I have had a petty and at first didnt know if I would like it or not but actually it was very relaxing!!! Jan: You would be so porud of me. That tomato plant that you gave out 2 meeting ago. Is getting so big I have to go get some dowls to I can put around it to keep it propped up. It is almost read to go outside if this rain would ever stop. lol Rachael: Where are you scooby doo??? Well I need to get in the shower and get ready for my appt. I will post when I find somethig out one way or the other. But I am believeing in the good way!!! Have a blessed day!!! Love ya'll Mel

Dear Jan and OH Family~ Watched the weather this morning and they said rain on and off all day and then a nice weekend-but then 3-4 more days of this. No chance of getting the pool started this weekend-AGAIN.....Im just so anxious about this I cant hardly see straight-wi**** would just be nice long enough to get it drained, power washed and painted....then we could fill it and let nature warm it up-LOL ~~Love to see other long posts-so I dont feel like the lone ranger-LOL-SOOOOO glad to see Susan back-YIPEE, shes gonna be on the bench soon! **Jan-OK, on the stepping stones-its a thick plastic-Im trying to figure out what to compare it to-and I dont know if a metal pan would work? Maybe google it online or something and get some ideas? I would assume it would have to stay an inch or so thick (as far as how high the sides of it are) as when it sets up after 24-36 hours, you work it out of the mold by holding it upside down and you can see where on the bottom of the mold-it working its way loose-so Im not sure about a pan or anything like that? Im sorry I cant be of more help. I have only made 3 and used the same mold in all of them! No, I dont spray the mold with anything before I use it. I re-read the directions to make sure-and it just says when the concrete is the consistancy of a brownie mix-its ready to be poured into the mold-and then you level it by shaking it gently back and forth and then smack it down on the hard surface (the mold-and gently) to get all the bubbles out that you can-and then use a spatula type product to smooth the surface while you wait to decorate it. Then after decorating-you leave it alone for 24 hours at least-and work it out of the mold-and then you can shine it up with a damp washcloth...the only thing I do after its been decorated-is maybe the lettering gets re-done a couple of times so it turns out okay and can be read. Mike got a semi good report from the doctor-he said that Mike has some seperation of muscles going on-and that IF it gets worse-he needs to go right to the ER-as he could develope a hernia IF he doesnt take it easy the next couple of days and gave him 2 prescriptions-so-guess he wont be doing anything here this weekend! Thats like trying to tame a wild animal-LOL-no-he has been in so much pain-that he doesnt fight me much when I tell him no-(poofing out my chest and banging on it-like tarzan!) What can I say about the girls' sperm donor? Nothing nice right now, thats for sure. My 16 yr old broke down last night (around midnite after the A$$ hole brought her home at 11:35 on a school night) because he told her that he was moving back to Vegas because the ONLY thing he had here is her and her sister-OK-SHOULDNT THAT BE ENOUGH???? I am telling you what-he hurt her bad-and made her feel like she wasnt worth it-and I am so P. O'D.....How can he look at those beautiful girls and not think they are worth it? I look at them and KNOW I couldnt stand the thought of being too far from them in my lifetime. She is so hurt. I told her that she NEEDS to tell him how she feels-just like her sister did when she was her age-he did not get to go see my oldest graduate from High School-because she didnt want him there-she has a tough skin when it comes to him-or least puts on a good show-but the younger one, she was very very young when we divorced and doesnt-she has ALWAYS yearned to get his love and approval-and Mike, bless his heart-has ALWAYS been there for those girls-to pick up the pieces and do dad stuff with them. Thank you God, for sending me a wonderful husband and for sending my girls a REAL father. I also wanted to take a moment to say-that the last 2 days-I have really had my heart touched by my OH family-I have received emails from you guys-and the support and love you have shown me-I was truly, from the bottom of my heart-overwhelmed. NEVER-in my lifetime-HAVE I EVER felt so loved!!! I cant even comprehend that without you all living in my house with me-that you took the time to email me and show your support-I really am blessed! All I know is that I am so blessed-and that I think the good Lord knows my wings are damaged right now-so you guys are lifting me up.....I WILL get through this-and I WILL NOT give in OR let the devil tear me and my family up-I KNOW it will be okay and I know that this too shall pass. So, I am going to say that-Maybe the good Lord knows that my girls couldnt handle watching their biological dad pass on and thats why he is moving? Its the ONLY good thing I can come up with-and I have to believe it so it doesnt drive me insane. The bankruptcy-well, it doesnt really weigh heavy on my mind-I hate that we have to do it-and that I feel like I am not pulling my weight financially OR we wouldnt be in this position-but IF I were still working, I would have missed some of the most wonderful times I have had with Jonathan-because I stayed home with the girls when they were little-and I always felt guilty sending him to daycare from the time he was 3 mos old-everyday I would cry on my way to work because of the guilt-so I do enjoy him and I cherish my time with him! I know there is a reason for everything and I AM trying so very hard to find the positives in all situations here-although, the anger I am holding towards my ex-I think is getting in my way of being productive. I really NEED to say my peace with him-but I am really afraid of the outcome (and Jail-LOL) although, something tells me-MEL would be sitting right next to me in the jail cell-LOL. **Chante-girl-dont keep the picture of Krissy in your head and how you saw her in the hospital-rather think that its just that last step you go through to get your reward. I know its hard-and I know that it can be scary. I am glad you went and saw her as your angelette sister and your friend-but dont let the devil play with you and make you think you shouldnt do it-ok? With all the prayer warriors on this site-you will BE FINE!! Love ya sweety. **Lana-I love you for thinking of me. I love you for giving me something to think about and to sit and think of ALL of my blessings and things I am greatful for-you mean the world to me-and thanks for sharing and thinking of me-you TRULY made my day yesterday-and you will NEVER even know the impact you had on me with the words you spoke-I thanked God for putting me on your heart-and for you listening and sending me words of wisdom. I love you! Tell your hubby we have a "pet" turtle that I am willing to bring to the meeting for him-LOL... **Colette-THANK YOU....I know you are going through so much too-and I pray for you and your hubby as well. Thank you for thinking of me and taking the time to write. I love you too and glad you are a part of my OH family-miss you when you arent here!! **Tammy-Ammy-girl-I have told you 100 times, if I have told you once-dont ever NOT call or email me with things you have going on or when you need a pick me up-because it may just be that I NEED you so that I can feel good too-LOL...Know what I mean, jelly bean? Your MORE than just an angelette to me-your a friend, and what kind of FRIEND would I be, if I were only there for the good times? Not a very good one, I fear-so next time-call or email me-I am here for ya-and its just what the doc would order to get my mind off some of this stuff-LOL....I love ya sis-and I AM SO PROUD OF YOU-thanks for always thinking and praying for me. **Susan-you already know this-but.....WOOOOO HOOOOO-you WILL be sitting by us soon-and I would love to have the PJ party at the hospital with you and Tammy-but something tells me-that the University of Columbia aint ready for nothing like the 3 of us in one room-LOL-I think a lot of staff would be giving their two minute notices!! Im so glad this will be over soon and we will all be on the bench together. **Rachael-you may be sorry for sending me your #-LOL....Thanks for the email-I love ya and think of you too-very often. I will call you, maybe this weekend if its not too crazy around here. Love ya. **Mel-Holy crap-I cant even imagine my life before you were a part of it-I can NEVER explain or describe how special you are to me-and how much I love you and know that in my lifetime-you are just a phone call away-altho the guys may get upset when we have to call for bail money-LOL....what a punishment IF they made us stay in there for a couple of days? A break for both of us-but-without smokes and our protein and crystal light-we may be a little cranky!! Love ya! Thank you. Ok-Well, I have to get going. Have some things to take care of with my younger daughter today-have some errands to run and get Mikes RX filled-thought about going and getting a haircut today-will see. Not sure if I have enough time. Am going to do my vitamins now and get my protein in....Love and Prayers to all! Janet

Hello Missouri, First I want to say HI to everyone. I'm not good at calling out names individually but I pray a blanket prayer for everyone morning and night. I love having all of you in my life!!! Jan, My crepe myrtles look dead but last evening I looked closely and saw about 10 little bud/leaves starting down low so I'm giving them some positive thoughts, I'd about given up hope and I do love them so much. My peonies are full of buds and crawling with ants like I remember from childhood. The bigger lilac has leafed out down lower so I think it is going to make it and the smaller one has one stalk that has leaves on it so I might salvage it too. The iris have no blooms coming on, but the leaves look vigorous so hopefully they will be OK. My hostas are coming along fine and my new pink lily of the valley has started making additional leaves. The bleeding heart I just got from Park Seeds has uncurled and has sprouted more leaves too. My wild violets and lily of the valleys I planted last year look as if they are spreading as I hoped but no blooms yet. We have shrub roses planted along the base of our house on the west side and they really look tough but I can see new leaves coming at the bottom so hopefully we won't lose them. The Pampas grass was about 12" high at the time of the freeze and so we cut it back down and now it is about 24-30 inches high. It gets about 15 feet tall by the end of the summer. DH planted two hydrangeas on the north side of our house by the foundation and they actually look as if they had always been there. No shock from transplanting at all. They were in bloom and the blooms didn't even drop. WOO HOO!!! That's about the extent of my yard except for 6 planters with geraniums and petunias that DH and I planted last weekend. They took right off too. Think all the rain and not too much sunlight helped them. Oh!! The tomatoes you gave me are really shooting up. This weekend I'm going to feed them tomato food. Got some this week. I have great hopes for fresh tomatoes!!! I want to get a cucumber plant but they are messy and I don't know if DH can deal with all those sprawly vines and, really, boughten cukes aren't bad at all. Susan, that MRSA is nasty stuff. Where do they think you picked it up? My little grand-son who was so preemie and died when he was 13 months old, had it all his little life and he got it in NICU. It is very contagious although my DD and DGS didn't ever get it from him. I'm so very excited for your approval. You're on you way now. Good for you. Mel, I'm so concerned about your FIL. His symptoms are so classic for early advancing Altzheimers. They many times get very restless in the evening hours and since it is light so long in the summer 11pm is about the time he'd get wound up. Has he become hostile to you or Terry? That could happen so be prepared. It is such a terrible disease, stealing the person you love from you and from himself. We went to Fuddruckers last night and I had a small cheeseburger, ate part of it, no bun, and some shredded lettuce and salsa. It was good but not as spectacular as I had built it up in my mind. Tastes change for sure after this surgery. My cottage cheese and SF applesauce taste better to me than a cheesburger. Go figure. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I plan to - it's Cinco de Mayo!!! Hugs and love, Lana

Hello everyone, It is 10:15 and I am just getting to post. Sort of just had some quality time after supper with my husband. He is feeling much better again. Please keep me in your prayers. He has had these spells 3 times since Jan where for 12-15 hours he loses all his ability to walk and he falls. 3 times on Monday nite he fell. It usually takes 12-15 hours for him to recuperate. I know as a nurse, He is having mini strokes (TIA's). The tests have shown nothing. After so many hours he can walk again. He also has had poor circulation in his legs for 15plus years and has had 3 bypasses on his legs. And 2 years ago, he had open heart surgery and a valve replacement plus 3 bypasses. I am sure the arteries and veins in his head are also narrowing. So please keep him in your prayers. Today, you would not know anything was wrong. I wanted to come on here to show you all my picture is back on. Yeh!!! I have a face again. LOL Keeping all of you in my prayers for all of your special problems. Just remember that we love you all and Jesus loves you more. God Bless. Colette